John 1:5 “The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it.”
I can see more truth in that verse than ever before.
Let me start from the beginning of Training Camp.
I saw 23 brothers and sisters in Christ, but still wasn’t sure how I would open up to each of them. How was I going to trust them, with my strengths, weaknesses, secrets, and my life. I’d begin to talk with my teammates, but never fully opened up, never fully showed them who I am.
We began working on team building activities to find our ministry groups, and I enjoyed my first two teams, but struggled with the third group; I couldn’t tell if that was God or Satan that was trying to interfere. The next morning the leaders split us up, and I was in the same team again.
In total, there are 6 girls, with two woman leaders. We began trying to work on our activity, which was making a team building/bonding activity. One of the girls suggested, “How about we do trust falls?”
I bluntly stated, “I’ve known you for a short time, I don’t trust you.” It was how I felt, and I didn’t really care at the time how people portrayed it, although I did feel guilty for saying it harshly.
All of a sudden, I had a clear God VOMIT, that’s the only way I know how to describe it. I started spilling everything, from what God was doing in my life to my struggles, my fears, my doubts, my barriers, everything in my heart they knew about. I feel like I talked forever, but it was needed. After I kept asking God, “Why did you just do that? Why did you make me spill it all? Here they come judging me, looking at me differently.”
But they didn’t. They cried with me, they loved me, they encouraged me, they spoke life into me, they showed light in the darkness, they held me, they prayed with me, they spoke truth – stuff I never even said out loud – they did everything that they needed to do.
After I let go, I ended it with, “I can do a trust fall with each of you, I trust you with my life, my heart.”
I was filled with an overwhelming love, I saw myself how my team saw me, I saw myself as God saw me.
Thank you Abba for making me talk, because I’m not sure how long it would take me to trust them if I hadn’t. Thank you Daddy, for loving me so well.
God has placed each person on our squad on four different teams. Each team member will uplift each other, encourage each other, and pray for each other. Each person is on his or her PERFECT team.
Now let me introduce you to my team, my PERFECT team. I wouldn’t trade these girls for anything, they’re such a blessing!
We are Team OVERCOME! We are going to overcome the darkness with healing.
Sidenote: this is the verse quoted in my room at Zion Café, which confirms all that God has been teaching me, I am a light, I am His light.
