The fundraising process for the mission trip is stressing me out. Yes, I am excited for it, but I also can’t stop questioning “how am I going to get all the funding?”
My first deadline is in a week and I’m at 4 percent funded when I’m supposed to have 50 percent. Great.
I’d like to write something uplifting, but if I’m honest, I’ve spent half of my spring break worrying about this mission trip. I was aware that I need to have $4,100, but being raised not to ask people for money makes me anxious to ask for support. I keep hoping God works His miracle, because I am THAT hopeless.
I totally don’t have the healthiest mindset towards this trip right now. I am not trusting the Lord with all my heart like it says in Proverbs 3:5.
I don’t know about you, but I’m an over-thinker. I sometimes have thoughts that I didn’t even know existed. I impress myself with my overthinking skills. If that was a real thing, I would proudly put it on top of my resume.
Today, my mind decided that I needed a break from digging in deep to every situation. I wanted to do something I usually don’t do so I went for a jog to distract myself. It was nice outside so why not? I avoid exercising because I usually have problem breathing. I was sweating after 15 minutes in and my legs were sore, but I felt good doing something I don’t usually do. I felt a little accomplishment running a mile and a half without being interrupted by my asthma.
I came back to my room realizing that I wouldn’t have felt the accomplishment if I didn’t go on a run today. I did something I have a hard time doing, but in return, I felt refreshed and encouraged.
I stared to think that maybe going on a mission trip, going out of my comfort zone to raise the funding will lead me to something bigger than I could ever imagine. After all, how am I able to learn to trust the Lord if I don’t have the stressful times in life. If I can trust him with this, I will be able to do the same with all the small things I worry about daily.
So as hard as it is for me, I’m trying not to have stress take over during this process.
