Hey everyone!
I’m officially in month two of the race, and I love every bit of it. I’m still in Romania just a different part of it. We’re a very small and very poverty-stricken area that if you blink you’ll miss it. I’m really not kidding. To get here we took a train and the train literally stopped in the middle of a field at the “train station” and the squad leaders with us are like “Yup! This is our stop”.
There’s been some challenging times, but God has taught me to love those too. Gods been challenging me and my faith a lot more than I’m comfortable with but he’s also been with me and shown his love every step of the way. I’ll give you an example.
Back in month one, in Craiova, it was worship night (which are awesome by the way). The way we run squad worship here is, usually, we start off by praying because when we open with prayer it helps us become spiritually ready to worship and to be intentional when we do worship. Following that is worship songs and then one of the team leaders for the squad leaders will give a lesson. What’s been really cool about worship is that the way we run it it’s supposed to be interruptible. Meaning if you get a word or God puts something on your heart to say or read something or even just pray over someone, the people playing will stop and let you stand up in front and do that. I really like the idea of this but speaking in front of people scares the actual crap out of me even if I know those people really well. Whenever God gave me a word I usually just ignored him because it was scary to me even though my goal from the beginning of the race was that I wanted to hear from God and then when he talk to me and told me to go up front I was like “I want to hear from you but I don’t want to hear that so tell me something else”. So anyways back to my point, this was back in month one and this is when I was first starting to hear from God because I really didn’t use too. So instead of going up in front of everyone I just sat there and minded my own business and kept worshiping. Maybe two minutes later my squad leader Taylor comes up to me and he’s like “I got a word for you. I feel like God gave you something to say but you’re not getting up to say it so he told me to come and tell you to get up there”. At this point I’m like what the heck God you told on me, so because of Taylor I went up there and did it.
Then next worship night comes around and the same thing happens. God gave me a word, I was scared and didn’t say it, Taylor came over and told me that God told him again and then I went up and talked again.
Then comes next worship night and the same thing happens again. This happened for a grand total of four times. Four times of me hearing from God, four times God telling on me, and four times of Taylor telling me to get my butt up there. There’s no telling what’s going happen this worship night but I guess we’ll find out!
What’s been really cool about this happening to me is that I am hearing from God. Yeah it’s been scary and he’s having me do things I’m not comfortable with, but he’s growing me so much. No matter how hard my head is and how many times I ignore him, Gods a gentleman that will patiently wait for me to come around and is always there to love me every step of the way.
That so wild to me and blows my mind! He meets us where we’re at. We don’t have to come to him because he has already come down to us and is just waiting for us to accept him. There’s nothing that we can do that will make us be loved by him more, and there’s nothing that we can do that will make him love us less. God is love.
Thanks all for reading!
