Hey God.
Do you remember when I was lost and alone and running from any sight of you ? Yeah, me too. I don’t know if I’ve told you lately how grateful I am for your patience. Or how I’d be lost without you, how you literally gave me life and made me new.
Why would you do that ? How could you redeem me ? How is it your grace is so endless and your heart is so flawless and your perfection fills all of my holes up to the overflow ?
You chose me before my parents even thought of me. Before their parents thought of them. Before anyone had any desire to reproduce, to create, to sing, to fly, to LIVE.
And then, when I boasted of you, that I believed in you but my life didn’t follow suit. How you didn’t backhand me, but instead continued pursuing me, with only increased eagerness, passion and joy. You never made me feel stupid, never made me feel worthless. Never told me I was unloved or not good enough. Not even when I blamed you for all of the chaos I let leak into my life when I was ruled and dominated by sin. Not even when I cursed you and others. Not even when I chose any form of escape but your open arms. Not even when I compromised every ounce of my physical, mental, spiritual, emotional and moral integrity. Not even when I stumbled after declaring you my Lord – no, never, not once.
Why didn’t you turn from me when I turned from you countless times ? When I scoffed at the idea of putting my trust in some One thing or person or idea I couldn’t feel, couldn’t see ? Why do you lift me up and encourage me at the right moment, every time ? You’re so perfect in every single way – your timing, your love, your Word. Thank you for all you’ve given me. Thank you for the company, the opportunity, the provisions – for every blade of grass, every drop of rain, every ounce of wisdom, every day of sunshine and day of shadow. So, why is it – why do you remain so constant and unchanging when I let my emotions win out and I’m just playing games with everyone around me, including myself ?
“I’m not playing games, I’m playing for keeps.”
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