Thoughts and quotes II

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Just some of the the raw thoughts I wanted to document.

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Sheaves after sowing, sun after rain,
Sight after mystery, peace after pain.
F. R. Havergal

On travel days its easy to read or watch movies, sleep; but true beauty lies right outside the window. I need to remember to look out the window and let God delight me instead of letting the world entertain me.

2/2/15 its a hard thing to hear deceit and truth mixed all in one sermon. As we ride to our new ministry site a preacher comes on board to exhort and encourage believers… and then ask for money based on galations 6:6. I did ask him a couple questions which he was not eager to answer. I know the prosperity gospel is a tricky devil, but the Holy Spirit is bigger and truer.

Am I proud of my life? Am I proud in my heart of things? Do I long for things I don’t have, or am I content? I am realizing that the daily life is more than circumstances, it’s more than comfort, it’s different than happiness- what does my attitude shout about God? ( certainly my attitudes hardly whisper…)

He will raise me up on the last day Bc the Father has allowed me to look to Jesus and be saved. I am secure, loved, and daughter after. What more could my heart ask for? … oh how sweet… I must mediitate on Jesus words more often.

2/6/15 Romans 14:13-14
Therefore let us not pass judgement on one another any longer, but rather decide never to put a stumbling block or hinderance in the way of a brother. I know and am pursuaded in the Lord Jesus that nothing is unclean in itself, but it is unclean for someone who thinks it is unclean. …….. nothing? Nothing is unclean in and of itself? This is the first question. The second is a question of the will : are we willing to die to ourselves for the sake of someone who has different convictions? –› onto vs 22… The faith that you have, keep it between yourself and God. But whoever has doubts is condemned if he eats, because the eating is not from faith. For whatever does not proceed from faith is sin. I think this type of sin is just one… not a blanket statement for we know that we were once dead in our tresspasses and sins- by nature I am a confident sinner, not doubting myself. This does not mean that I was not sinning just because I was confident.

2/10/15
Some people think that adults lose their ability to imagine… to dream with creative freedom. On the contrary, I find that my imagination has found greater hights. I have felt deeper, thought truer, and read a great many books (written by adults). My imagination is so much fun to me… truly a delightful way to pass time.

2/11/15
Twenty three years ago today God beaconed me forth to enter this world. It is good that I ponder His purposes for me… and realize that every day He is drawing me nearer to the grandest  purpose for which he created me. I think He put me here for His glory, to be in the middle of His flood of love. It is wonderfully simple… and doesn’t point to me at all.

2/17/15
Be wary of saying,  “this will surely lead people to Christ.” Or “this will be a hinderance to the gospels.” God can use, and I’m sure will use, despisable things to bring  people to the gospel. Some people are especially against apologetics as a means of evangelism, who believe that reason or logic will not lead someone to Christ. They are correct in that logic doesn’t save someone. They are incorrect in their belief that apologetics is *inherently* a hinderance. Apologetics is indeed a tool used by God to open doors to hearts and minds.
When we discover a new truth about God, we cannot but help with responding in some way- yes, pride will surely keep a man stiff legged. However, a good many man has found himself on the floor, on his knees, out of revelation of the most high. Apologetics is a means of introducing a new worldview- one where it is possible, reasonable even, to believe that God exists.

2/20/15
One of my very favorite things is listening to a story. I love to hear the voice change, to hear so I can picture the scene in my mind. It is one of the most relaxing things I can think of. When I go home, maybe my roommate will enjoy reading outloud. One can hope!

2/25/15
I’m on a bus travelling for the 14th hour today… been thinking about previous months with my spare time. It occurred to me that while I was feeding the children at the latacunga orphanage in Ecuador, I was the one the children were being patient with. Here I thought it was me who was practicing peace of mind… hut some of the children were fed much slower than normal, and they still were gracious. What a gross miscalculation on my end. I wish I could thank them.

3/31/15
On my way to Malaysia in the airplane. The turbulance is nothing to be desired, what with all the crashes and disappearences from planes going to Malaysia in recent months and years. I’m (fairly) certain that planes don’t crash from excessive turbulance, though this is the most jostling I’ve ever experienced on a plane and I would be lying if I said I haven’t been at least a little anxious and nervous about this flight. Just now, I’m sick from the intensity and will be happy to land, safely, and with no lack of true heartfelt gratitude.
On a different note, I  just watched
the film “Interstellar”. Being on a journey to a land so different than mine… the film stirred some deep wells in me. I think the friction has been there, deep in my soul, waiting for something to light a fire, preparing for a journey I didn’t necissarily sign up for… not in expectation or desire, anyway… but a journey that’s higher and better than what I have invisioned. I wonder what waits for me in Asia… rather, what God is going to work into me and through me. I would love to be apart of healings, physical, emotional, spiritual… to love deeply and truly seeing Christ in people. I want that experience… to see what intensity God offers us tiny humans. I don’t want to live in His intensity… I know life is lived in the day to day. I want a memory ingrained… a deeper understanding of His reality on a new level. Intensity in prayer, in joy, in peace, in love, in truth, in righteous anger… depth into his reality.
What understanding do we have, really? His ways are higher than ours. I don’t feign understanding… but I want to experience God. To experience what He would do given the open door. I want to know what God can do with obedience, availability, devotion, sacrifice and affection and worship and prayer first hand. I don’t want to tell someone else’s story… I want to tell His story out of my life. I want to see His hands mold me… to feel his intimate inner workings and see what others think.. to inspire others to love and be loved by the most High. What will you do with me, God!?

* don’t forget to download Les Miserables original cast Cd.

Listening to this Cd… its a song about a reality that many ppl live… “why is life worth living?” We must reach out to them. We have to be the ones to go to them.