Month 7 was not an easy month. Between the ministries, getting along with the team, and dealing with personal things it was a hard month. Which is why the word for month 7 is:
STRUGGLE
Month 7 was the month I got along with my team the least. We constantly were in disagreement and it started affecting everything we did.
For month 7 we spent a week in Michigan and 3 weeks in Tonowanda, New York. In Michigan we partnered with a thrift store that employs former inmates to help them learn valuable skills and enter back into society easier. In New York, we worked with several different ministries. We worked 716 ministries which flips houses for the community to help the less fortunate, we worked with a homeless outreach in the church we were staying in, we worked at a clothe me co OP for the community, and we worked at a Vacation bible school at a local school. I enjoyed working with the ministries especially since the majority of them I hadn’t done. It also was really hard. Having never flipped a house it was a struggle trying to figure out what I was doing. The 3 weeks in New York were also hard due to a packed ministry schedule. Mist days we would have 1-2 hours of free time. I did enjoy the ministry’s though.
During month 7 I had been asked to do a storytelling teaching at our next debrief in September. I initially said yes. Unfortunately the enemy did not like that I said yes. He started spreading lies in my head that I would humiliate my family of teachers by doing a teaching. That no one understands me on a daily basis, how would they understand me in a teaching. Or that I struggled in school so what makes me qualified to be a teacher. After about a week of fighting off the lies and praying about it I realized that the best was to pass on the offer. Later that day I sent an email to leadership saying i no longer wanted to do the teaching.
On top of all of this I wasn’t getting along with the team and didn’t feel like I could talk to any of them about what I was dealing with.
Month 7 was definitely hard. I was struggling through it everyday. I came out the other side stronger. As it says it Nehemiah 8:10-Nehemiah said, “Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is holy to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.”
