Ever since I decided to apply to the Race I've wanted to make changes. Things that have become such a norm to me are quickly being brought into focus as objects and actions of destruction. So I've made a list of things that I want to change to better myself and my relationship with God. Here are some examples:
1.) I want to save everything for my husband…and I mean EVERYTHING! Yep, that includes kissing until the magical words of "You may now kiss the bride."
2.) Television shows and music that contain explicit material. Though I am 20 years old and my mom doesn't need to censor what I listen and watch with parental controls, I still need to guard my eyes and ears. Just because the critics are raving at how "thrilling, action packed, and sexy" a movie is, doesn't mean I need to partake in that.
3.) Another alcoholic drink will not touch my lips until my 21st birthday, and even then it will only be ONE in celebration. Unlike most people my age, I've always been very careful with drinking, I rarely am anywhere but a safe location and I don't drive. But when you wake up in the morning to texts you sent and have to type out a long (and under appreciated, I might add! ) apology to someone for the embarassing texts you sent the night before, you start to realize your weakness.
4.) Watching my own mouth. Now this has to be one of the hardest things. Not to curse and to keep "that's what she said" out of conversations. It becomes so second nature to people these days that when you're trying to stop everyone around you becomes a bad influence. Its not a simple task to escape.
Okay, so let's get to the point of this blog post…PEOPLE THINK I"M CRAZY! I literally get laughed at for these goals. Well, from most people. It's something that has really come to realization for me lately; the only people who have heard these goals and been like "wow, that is great." are people from the race and like one girl I work with. Other than them, people think it's a joke, and that breaks my heart. The four things that I listed to change about myself are so normal to everyone else that they find ridiculous, yet its these types of things consuming us every single day that can keep us from Heaven.
It doesn't matter what excuses you make:
"It's not like we're having sex." "It's rated R and I'm over 18, so it's not wrong for me to watch it." "It's what the radio plays, and the bad words are cut out." "I'm really careful when I drink." "The Bible doesn't say anything about these cuss words."
The point is, it's corrupt. The meanings behind the lyrics you listen to and the words you say, breaking the law of land by under age drinking is a sin, and you are meant to save everything for your husband or wife, not just sex. I guess my point is that I have a new goal list:
1.) Represent God through these actions so that people around me see Him in me. Now that doesn't seem so crazy, does it?
