It has been a hectic week to say the least. It wasn’t supposed to be, and when you look at my planner it may not seem that way, but there has been so much to get done this week and not enough time to do it in. Assignments have taken longer than planned to get done and the days have started to feel overwhelming.
But today was different, today it was warm, and the sky was clear. When I got out of class my car thermostat showed that the temperature was in the mid 60’s, and for once it felt like it wasn’t lying. It really was a beautiful day, so I decided to take some time and go to the lake on campus (one of the many perks on living right in the middle of Daniel Boone national forest.)
I just sat there, looking out at the lake, talking to the Lord, and playing worship music. It was the most peaceful moments I’ve had this entire semester and I could have lived in it forever. I was overwhelmed by His peace and His presence. I was overwhelmed by the beauty around me. I was overwhelmed by the worship music playing, the music that reminded me of how wonderful God is to us each day, we just have to take the moment to realize this. I kept playing the songs Holy Spirit and Great are You Lordover and over again, just taking in every word and meaning as it played.
We talked earlier this week in life group about having a daily conversational relationship with God. So, I opened my heart to Him and just talked for a while, letting Him know everything that’s been going on, and every emotion in between. I prayed for peace in this chaotic season of life, that I would carry the peace I was experiencing in those moments throughout the rest of the week. I prayed that I would be reminded each day that His timing is perfect, even if I don’t see it in the moment. And I prayed that as I prepare for the race, I give Him total control to use my life to reflect the light that He gives.
I started a study on the book of Isaiah not too long ago, and a verse that really stuck with me was Isaiah 2:5, “O house of Jacob, come let us walk in the light of the Lord.” I loved how this verse sounded and I prayed that God would give it meaning in my life, but I don’t think I really understood it until today while I was sitting by the lake. There wasn’t a cloud in the sky, the sun was shining so bright and I could feel the heat as it warmed my body. I began to understand that with the peace He gives, it is possible to feel this way all the time, even when it’s raining, and the sun hasn’t been seen in days. Every day the lord invites us to walk in His light, He LONGS for us to walk in it with Him.So, I began to pray that I would continue to see His light working in my life, and that as I go on the race, I would reflect this light daily.
And while I was sitting there, praying about these things, I realized that I’m no longer afraid to go on this trip, I’m not afraid to go to a foreign county, or be separated from my family for a month. I am peace with it, and I am longing to share this peace He’s given me and reflect his light daily to all those I meet in Costa Rica and along the way.
