Lord, where do I desperately need you?
This is the question I have been asking myself everyday for Jesus to reveal to me.
I am learning to ask the Lord to search me and to show me where in my heart and in my life do I desperately need him.
The truth of the matter is, we all need Jesus desperately. When we stop thinking we need Him is when we get into dangerous territory.
My biggest passion and belief is every human life is worth everything. They are radically loved by the God of the universe. Its my goal in life to help people find freedom and without a doubt, know their worth and how God sees them. However, Jesus is the only one who can actually bring that freedom.
Sounds elementary right? I mean, I could never actually bring freedom without Jesus. The thing is, I didn’t realize that is what I was trying to do. If I could just do one more thing for this person. If I leave them a big tip. If I invest x,y, or z of myself for them, if I tell them how much I love them again, surely they will know the radical, unfailing love of… Ally?
NO! My love cannot set people free and I am learning to ask myself, am I trying to lead this person to me or the Father? The last thing I need is for the world to know that I’m amazing.
The radical, unfailing love of the Father is the only thing that will set them free, and is also the same love I need every day. This is what I want every person to experience.
Don’t get me wrong, doing nice things is not bad and can be used as a vessel for Jesus to accomplish this same goal. I was just trying to accomplish this goal without being connected to the Father myself.
How many of us care so deeply for the orphan, the widow, the neighbor but forget or don’t allow the Lord to love us in the same way.
I had to ask myself, if every human life has value then doesn’t mine? Doesn’t yours? Is that what we are living out of?
It’s often glorified in the Christian culture to put ourselves last and again thats not wrong but if I am not living consumed by the transforming love of Jesus then how do I expect others to?
If I am trying to do everything on my own accord then, how do I expect others to live their life in desperate need of Jesus.
I am walking through what it looks like to look inwardly at myself and breath in the fact that I was created to simply be loved by my Father. To let Him love me and operate out of THAT love, not out of my own. I desperately need him and he will not be disappointed in me for not being able to do it without him.
The funny thing is, is Jesus shows up so much more when we live out of this place. I cannot wait to share with you the testimonies of Jesus working through me in this.
I also want to challenge you to take a good look at yourself. Sit alone with Jesus and ask him, “Where do I desperately need you today.” This is where I need him right now. Where do you need him?
I would love to connect with any one of you and talk about this or other things that I have been learning at CGA.
