Trading My Bed for a Sleeping Mat… Again.

I’ve been trying to write a blog for weeks now. 

I guess I’m not really sure what I want to write.

But I still can’t shake the nagging feeling in my heart. 

The one that inexplicably drags me to the computer every time. 

So here I am. 

I am leaving for Kenya in two days. 

…What?

I knew that 2 months would be a short amount of time to be at home, 

but it really has just flown by. 

Home has been really good. 

And really hard. 

It’s been hard try to understand this culture again. 

It’s been hard seeing how easily I fell back into some things. 

It’s been hard to sit in a church and look around, wondering where the community is. 

It’s been hard knowing that my family resents the fact that I might never be home for a

lengthy period of time ever again. 

It’s been hard creating new relationships knowing all the while that I’m leaving again. 

It’s been hard trusting God’s plan instead of my own plan.

But it has been so good being home and clearly seeing the difference in myself. 

It’s been so good to see the people I love try to understand where I’m coming from when I 

get ridiculously excited about ice cubes.

It’s been good to find a new community and have a place to build into. 

It’s been good knowing that I didn’t come home with a “mission trip high”, and that my relationship with the Lord has grown and changed significantly, and continues to do so. 

It’s been so good to sleep in my own bed and have daily hour long chats with my Ma.

It’s been really good being home. 

But here I am again. 

Trading my bed for a sleeping mat. 

I am so excited for what God is gonna do in Kenya.

I am so excited to see how He messes up my girls. 

I am so excited to be co-leading with a woman who is so freaking legit. 

I am excited to be in Georgia for a couple days to refocus my heart. 

I am excited for this next season. 

 It’s gonna be hard. 

I’m going to hate it some days.

But the Lord is gonna do some big things in me. 

With me. 

For me. 

Through me. 

So, I guess this is it… 

Here we go again. 

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