One day during debrief a friend and I went to the mall. When we got there, we realized that the new Disney movie “Frozen” had come out and, since she really wanted to see it, we went. I wasn’t extremely excited about seeing it but, by the end, I was glad that I spent the money to go.
The plot was okay. The animation was funny. The message was very Disney. The songs were awkwardly placed (in my opinion). But the one thing that kept me going through the movie was Idina Menzel’s voice. She sang a song with these lyrics:
Let it go
Let it go
Can’t hold it back anymore
I have a tendency to turn not-so Christian songs into Christian ones, and that is what happened with this one. I have a musical reminder to “let it go” and give it to the Lord. Any anxieties that I hold, any responsibility that I have, any power I believe is mine needs to be let go. I need to let it go.
That is the one song that cannot get out of my mind. When I am struggling with teammates – let it go. When I am in the midst of a confrontation – let it go. When I hear the Lord calling me somewhere I am nowhere comfortable with – let it go.
Three and a half months down and I have come to realize that this World Race has not been anything that I expected. I came into the World Race expecting to be a normal racer, and they made me a treasurer. I thought, sure, I can handle this and still do all the things I wanted, and then the Lord threw a curve ball. I became a team leader. Where in the world was the Lord taking me? Every time I think the Lord wants me to grow in one way, I get thrown in the opposite direction.
Maybe it is some type of avoidance mechanism or something; I really am not sure. But I am sure of one thing: the Lord has put me in this place at this time for some specific reason. If you have read my support letter, or not, the verse I put on the letter comes from Esther:
“And who knows whether you have not come to the kingdom for such a time as this?”
Esther 4: 14
*It has been three weeks since I have written this blog. We have just finished debriefing in Malaysia and I am currently sitting on the freezing tile floor of a Japanese airport. I have had time to process this change in my life even further, and I am so excited to see all that the Lord will do in and through me and my co-squad leaders (Carolyn and Kaylaynn) for the rest of this season! Please pray for our leadership as well as the health of our squad as we take this next step into the unknown. God Bless!
