My life is so busy right now, with working full time, preparing for the World Race, spending time with friends and family, being involved at church, summer plans, etc.
Preparing for the Race is a task in and of itself, especially fundraising. The past week or so, I’ve been feeling overwhelmed…. how will I ever reach my goal and have the funds I need to take this trip??
God has called me to go on the World Race, but it’s hard. It’s hard to believe He’ll really provide everything I need. I think that right now finances are what I worry about most.
It’s not easy to trust God for $16,000. It’s not easy to reach out and ask people to support me financially… and I am naturally a quiet person so that makes it even more difficult.
God is really stretching my faith right now! One of my favorite songs is “Oceans” by Hillsong United – I’ve sung this song as a prayer many times:
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters, wherever you would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, and my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my savior.
And now it has become a reality in my life. Somehow it’s different than I imagined…. singing a song seems so simple, but now that I’m actually at a place in my life where I have to trust God to provide, it doesn’t feel simple.
I want to be in control; I want to plan my fundraisers and know exactly where all the money is coming from.
But the truth is, I can’t do it on my own…. and I’m not meant to. And as crazy as it sounds, I’m actually glad I don’t have everything I need just sitting in front of me – because if I did, I wouldn’t have to trust God. I wouldn’t have to reach out and rely on others. And my faith wouldn’t grow.
God is the one who gave me the dream of being a missionary and sharing His love with the world, and now He’s made a way for it to happen! I need to focus on Him through this whole process, rather than worrying and doubting. I need to believe the truth that He is able to do exceedingly, abundantly above all I can ask or imagine; that in my own human strength it may be impossible, but with God nothing is impossible. He’s got this! And even though I don’t know where all the money will come from, He does. He has every penny accounted for, and I don’t have to worry about it.
Jesus looked at them and said, “With men it is impossible, but not with God; for with God all things are possible.”
-Mark 10:27
~Right now I am at about 6.5% of my goal, with $1,045. If you would like to support me, you can click on the link at the top of my blog!~
