Hello all,
This is more of a life update than anything. It is also a way to express everything that I am feeling about the race and life, in general. I have just finished finals, and I have been out of the loop with funding for this next step in life. I have been very caught up in college these last couple of months, and it has almost been a relief for me that I have an excuse not to think about funding because at times it can seem like a giant. Now that school is out I am jumping back into it and asking the Father how to go about it all. He has kindly responded that I should just commit myself to the process. Sometimes I want to just know what that looks like.
The process.
It’s something that I can’t see and lots of times I don’t even know it’s happening until I look back and see the growth that the Lord has caused in me. As I surrender myself to the process again, I am excited to learn more about trust.
I find so much beauty in the surrender to the Father. There are days like today when it seems hard to let go and trust. There are times that I would rather just clock out and do my own thing. Not think about others needs and just be in myself. But. But God’s whisper to follow and trust is close, and I never regret listening to Him; I never regret following, whether it’s to pray for someone at work, or to give up an hour of my time for Him.
So much of our walk with God is surrender and that’s how the relationship grows; the more we let go of, the more the Lord moves in.
I am about to change gears for a moment, so I hope your ears don’t hurt from the grinding of metal. My birthday was on the 16th (yesterday), and I found such a rich return on the relationships I have invested in this past year. Each time I got a “Happy Birthday” from someone I had chosen to invest in, it meant the world to me – more so than a thousand “Happy Birthdays” from others I might not know. I don’t use the word ‘blessed’ a whole lot. (I know I’m from the South where the blessings flow, but I’m somewhere in the middle of North and South at heart.) There wasn’t another word I could think to use to describe yesterday except the word ‘blessed.’ The Lord had given me rich relationships, and I got to enjoy them that day. It was a treasure.
So how should I end the little ramble I just had? No clue.
How about with the Word?
The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.
Psalm 23…..emphasis added by me;)
