Dear fear,
Thank you for what you’ve taught me over the years, but I’m leaving you behind. I am going a different direction now.
You’ve been by my side for quite some time now and I’m afraid we just have to part. Over time you have turned to what I thought was a friend to a foe. Oh the power you have had over me!
You’ve told me I wasn’t good enough.
You’ve told me I’m not right.
You’ve told me I’m not strong enough to put up a good fight.
You’ve told me I’m not worthy.
You’ve told me I’m not loved.
You have kept me from chasing big dreams, God sized dreams.
You have frozen me when I prayed for confidence.
You have left me speechless in front of others when they needed my comfort.
You have stopped me from being bold.
You have taken away joy and freedom in my life.
What a big waste of time you have been to me, making me worry and lose sleep.
You have been successful in demeaning and manipulating me in many aspects of life.
You’ve have been the one to tell me I’m the one grace could never change.
BUT
You are a liar.
You are a cheat.
Yet, you have taught me I can upgrade. You taught me that you’re not impossible to leave behind. You have made me aware you’ll always be in my window waving but I don’t have to let you in.
So goodbye fear.
I have made a new friend.
Her name is faith.
She is gentle and kind.
She helps me persevere.
She turns your mess into a new found hope.
I welcome her so I can become authentically me and live the life with the purpose God has for me.
I know my God is good and faithful. He cares more about who I am than what I can do for Him.
Faith is giving me confidence.
I’m no longer putting my trust in what I have but in who has me.
That is my Lord.
I’m not sad to see you go. In fact, I know you’ll come knocking. But know this… you’re no longer welcome in my life. You no longer have the control over me you once did. I have gained new friends, such as faith, that will constantly stand by me if I ask of her. Along the way she will help me now in seeking a life free of living off fear based emotions.
So goodbye fear.
Much love and many blessings,
Rachel
Bungee Jumping off Victoria Falls (one of the 7 natural wonders of the world).
