In John 2:1-12 Jesus turned water into wine at a wedding where they had run out. I have grown up hearing this story but today when I read it something new stood out to me and it was the words the chief servant said to the groomsman (who was unaware of Jesus miracle), “Everyone sets out the fine wine first, then, after people have drunk freely, the inferior. But you have kept the fine wine until now.” When I read that it reminded me of how Jesus could just continue letting me live a good/ mediocre life, but instead he looks at me and sees that I can’t live life on my own because soon enough I will run out of endurance so he takes my empty “inferior” life and fills me with His best. This past week I attended training camp for the World Race where I lived in a tent for 10 days and shared a shower that consisted of a bucket and a cup with about 200 other girls in preparation for life on the mission field. At first I was missing the comforts of home and I felt a little entitled to hot water and good food, but as the week went on Jesus began filling me up with joy at the fact that in about a month I will be able to share the gospel with people all around the world and before I knew it my discomfort began to fade away. At camp I learned so much more than just living minimalistly, I learn that God thinks I’m good despite my mistakes and that no matter what I do God will always desire a relationship with me. That my mistakes do NOT make me unworthy and that I don’t have to fill my life with good works for Him to take notice of me, but that all he wants is a relationship. So… yes, God could have left me where I was just trying to do life on my own, but he knew I couldn’t make it much longer so He took me and filled up with His love and I have never felt so happy about being completely and utterly dependent on Him.
