Why I actually want to go on the World Race
Learning to Trust
It has been hard to put into words exactly why I want to go on the World Race. My thoughts about this trip do not always fit so nicely into casual conversation. I have not spent one day without thinking about the race since June 2014. And it seems like my list reasons on why I am going evolve day by day. But to sum it up, I would gladly trade a year of my life for a new perspective and deeper level of trust in God.
From a young age, I have been very motivated to accomplish goals. These were some of my thoughts behind this driven perspective: “Relationships are nice along the way, but there is always a course and a plan—a set route to follow. That is the way. There must always be a plan, and you must stick to your goals always. If the plan changes, make another plan and follow that just as closely, because that is your security. People change and they will fail you. But stay within the high marks of success and you will be safe and exceptional. No one can harm you. No one can touch you. Follow, honor and fear God, but always stay on task.” This thinking is what I want to change.
I want to go on the World Race to challenge the way I see the world and see myself. I hope the world, and all the amazing people in it, become much larger in my perspective and so much more important to me. I hope to see myself smaller in a healthy way; the funny thing about pursuing big dreams and setting goals is that very soon life becomes all about me. Once I figured that, I craved a year to step away from striving for my own goals and JUST focus on people. I don’t expect this to be easy as a very task-oriented individual. But I hope that I can begin to see people the way that God sees them—as beautiful masterpieces of creation. I desire to dwell in my walk with God and be at peace with myself more than just striving and working hard towards something that may or may not be His design in the first place.
I will always be a hard worker, and I may always have that “go-getter” personality. But I hope these traits become more purposeful within the mastery of my Creator’s work. I pray that my love for the arts, travel and adventure are within His design for me, and that I can finally let go of trying to plan it out along the way. Then maybe I can finally just enjoy the ride.
