It’s so amazing to me how much God can show you even when you feel like you are in a spiritual drought in your life. For me, summertime is always a period of struggle with my faith because I’m not surrounded by as many Christ followers, I don’t have to attend chapel twice a week, and it’s easier to make excuses for why I don’t have time to spend with God or why I don’t have to go to Church every week. However, so far this summer, I feel like God is showing me so many things and teaching me how to be what He wants me to be instead of what I think I should be. So many opportunities keep popping up for me to learn and grow as a person and it’s just too perfect to be coincidental and I know that God has His hand in all of it.
I think that deciding to do The World Race has seriously been one of the best decisions of my life. I feel like ever since I made the decision to do it and took that plunge of trusting God with my life instead of making my own plans that I have gained so much confidence. This is something that I’ve been working on for quite some time and it feels so unbelievably great to finally feel like the strong, intelligent, beautiful, and loved person that God created me to be. This new found confidence might not quite show through to the outside yet, but I have definitely noticed a difference in the way I think and look at things. Up until very recently, my first thought when I would see something new I wanted to try would be “I can’t do that. I’m not [pretty, smart, athletic, talkative, outgoing, etc.] enough.” Before, being me just wasn’t enough, but I’ve been learning that all I need to be is me. Exactly the way God created me. Sure, there are some things I should still work on and grow as a person, but God made me the way I am for a reason and I should learn to appreciate me for me if I’m going to expect others to do the same. I think this is one of the hardest lessons I’ve had to learn and it’s a continual process. I am enough and God loves me no matter what so I should appreciate every aspect of myself, even if certain traits are not the most lovable things.
The video below is one of the most inspiring videos I saw when making my decision to take this journey. So many of those cardboard signs describe me and I can't wait to have all the experiences that get me to the other side of the sign. God has such an incredible, unbelievable plan for me and I can't wait to see it all happen right before my eyes!
1 Timothy 1:7- For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love, and self-discipline.
