I'm going to share something that has been a constant struggle for me: my desire. I understand that desire is a loaded word and so many things can be desired. The previous blog I posted about my desire to know the lord better, my desire to just have more and more of him. I desire God and freedom from earthly ways… but those chains are not always easy to break. Desire comes in the form of sexual thoughts and impulses. Desire comes with the want for material possessions. Desire often comes with how I appear, my physical appearance and how I want to look in other people's eyes. We ALL struggle with forms of desire, one way or another. Desire is human nature, it's the thread of our culture here in America. We want things, we tell ourselves that we need certain things, all for the sake of happiness. I have previously let that desire and worry manifest itself within me and block my relationship with my Lord and Savior.
I was doing some reading and devotions this morning and came across the verse Matthew 6: 25, 27: "Therefore I tell you, stop being perpetually uneasy about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink; or about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life greater than food, and the body than clothing?… And who of you by worrying and being anxious can add one unit of measure to his stature or to the span of his life?"
I felt so connected to that verse and what I believe it is about. How much time do I spend worrying about fleshly matters compared to the time I spend living and loving God's greatness? Compared to living in and with the Holy Spirit? That answer shames me friends. I know that things and aspects of the flesh will stick with me for as long as I'm alive, but the truth is God has an abundant life planned for me. For ALL of us!
In order to stop worrying about what I think I need, or how something I own can change who I really am, I must dwell with the Holy Spirit. It is then that I will be living God's abundant life that he has planned for me, the life that he died on the cross for. I must turn my heart, my mind, my body and my soul in this direction. By doing so I am able to hear and follow the prompting of the Holy Spirit. I felt and witnessed these amazing moments day after day while at Training Camp! God spoke to, God touched me, I prayed for wisdom and discernment and God placed these convictions on my heart.
God loves me, God loves you. He has heard me confess my sins, and he has forgiven me. Bottom line is that God cares. God cares on a level that I can't even begin to fathom or comprehend. I have experienced a joy that can not be found or manufactured here on earth. I sense opportunities so vast and so amazing. I can hear and feel God leading the way promising me a life that I could previously only dream about. So I ask you this friends… what on earth do I have to worry about? What on earth do you have to worry about?
