By the title I’m sure you can infer that life has not been super cheerful for me lately. This is not meant to be a depressing story though, rather it is meant to be motivational and encouraging to those going through similar circumstances. I would like to briefly just explain why I have been in this slump and how God has revealed to me how snap out of it.
Over the past month or so I have been going through a lot of tough issues mentally. Satan has convinced me of lies and helped me create a prison for myself with which I knew I was enabling myself to be in. As we have been drawing closer to the first fundraising deadline, the subtle realization that I was extremely far from reaching the goal and time was slipping through my finger tips. That subtle realization quickly began to turn to panic. This panic was just what Satan wanted to try attempts at attacking me, which I allowed him to win. I allowed Satan to come in and cause doubt in my mind and make me believe that I am not good enough to accomplish things. Satan was winning over my emotions and doing everything he could to get me out of fellowship with God.
I quickly began on a downward spiral, where I was using my own self pity as excuses to turn to things of this world to find happiness. I had been running to these empty things to try and promote happiness or help me ignore my problems, but the issue with that is that it is all temporary. All those things come to an end and just leave you more upset and feel further in a slump than before. This is what was happening to me and is something I am still working on. I know that the way to pull out of this slump is to rekindle my relationship with God. I have to quit falling for Satan’s lies and cheap tricks to distance me from God. As I work on this I know the road is long and difficult, and Satan will be trying everything to prevent me from returning to my relationship with God. I know that God has not Given up on me yet and has greater plans for me than I can make for myself.
With that being said, I can’t say that I know all of God’s plans for me, but I’m learning to be ok with the uncertainty because that is a part of the journey. Honestly I am not sure if He intends for me to go on World Race, but I will continue to work hard for it until He tells me otherwise. It may be difficult to accept if He calls me to something else, but I know that everything will work out for the better plan He has. I can’t get caught up on what I don’t get to do, but realize and appreciate the things right in front of me that I do get to do. So in essence, I am learning to pull out of this slump I’ve been in and trust whatever plan God has in store for me, whether it be for World Race, or something completely different.
