For five days me and my whole squad have been at debrief discussing our first month along with many other things. The two main words that God has been speaking to me since debrief are vulnerability and intentionality. Let me tell you one thing, those two things have been the most draining and exhausting thing I’ve ever done. Anyone who knows me knows I dislike emotions and dislike talking about emotions and anything vulnerable. It’s one thing in my life I will do literally anything to avoid talking about, but one thing I know will both grow my faith and my relationship with everyone in my life. I’ve also learned that they’re different forms of vulnerability, what’s vulnerable for you may not be for another person and vice versa. Once again anyone who knows me that being in front of people and making a fool of myself are something I have no issues with.
This past Sunday God asked me to lead worship for my whole squad. I originally said no, but of course He gave me a sign that once again asked me to lead worship when one of my squad mates asked our team to lead. It’s something that I’ve wanted to do but not until I could play the guitar in my sleep and figured out some kind of singing voice. It was a way for me to grow, but at the time it was just very uncomfortable for me. After battling with the Lord I eventually said yes which lead to yet another surprise, learning a whole song in less than 24 hours. I had only been playing the guitar for a little over a month now and only been learning two songs but I felt convicted to a completely new song, saying yes to the Lord on this was the hardest thing I’ve had to do. That being said I’m posting the video of that night and being completely vulnerable with everyone and anyone reading this and as I’m typing this I’m literally sweating all over again. It’s not the greatest guitar playing skills and definitely not the greatest singing voice, but something I want to continue to follow in the glory of God. My challenge and question to you is to become vulnerable, is God asking you to step out of your comfort zone?
Colossians 3:17 “And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus.”
