The past month in a half I’ve hit a dry spell with hearing from God and honestly it sucks. It all started when my hookworms began and I really didn’t understand that. I needed God the most in that situation, I needed to hear from Him and yet I couldn’t. I never once doubted that He left me abandoned and all alone, but not hearing from Him was crazy. Why? Did I do something wrong? Was I not doing enough? Or was He trying to tell me something and I was just subconsciously ignoring Him for whatever silly reason? I started praying more and for longer periods of time, I started listening to more worship music, I started journaling more. I was literally doing anything I could think of to get back to where I use to be with Him. A month of this passed and still no word.
At the end of the month we had LDW for a few days and we also had to say goodbye to our squad leaders Drew and Lindsey. One of the nights we were there we sat around a big bonfire, everyone’s bellies were slap full of hot dogs and smores and everyone was excited for Drew to lead us in one more worship night before he left us. In the middle of it we all got in small groups and just started praying for anyone who wanted it and needed it. Well I was one of those people, I asked for prayers on hearing God’s voice again. All three people around me(Megan, Lindsey and Kennadi) said various things that I appreciated and took to heart. Then Lindsey Moore said something that I didn’t know would affect me until now. She told me that she believes I’m to the point with my relationship with God where me and Him are best friends. You can sit in a room with a best friend barely saying anything and still say a lot and consider it a good day.
Well we’re currently in the middle of month 6 and the more I’ve prayed about that the better it has gotten. I realized that she’s right, me and God are best friends, bro’s, buds, pals. Me and God are like Shaggy and Scooby Doo, peanut butter and jelly! I didn’t do anything wrong, God was sitting/walking next to me the entire time just hanging out with me and I was too focused on wanting Him to talk that I couldn’t see it. I was too focused on God telling me what to do or where to be to tell that God just wanted to hangout with me and be pals. And honestly I’m ok with that, if God literally just wants to chill with me than I’m actually excited about that and I think we all need to be! Be excited that He wants to be your friend! Thanks to Lindsey Moore and the kids we’re staying with this month that helped me realize that. It’s exciting news and I just want to share it with everyone who doesn’t realize it yet! I’m God’s Scooby Doo and He’s my Shaggy! Just because He’s not talking doesn’t mean He’s not there, not everyone has to talk 24/7 like me to be there!
