Now that I have been accepted on the world race, it’s been a process of growing and deeply soul searching with my relationship with God and in effect my relationship with others. Before choosing to go on this mission trip it seemed that I was always longing for a good relationship with God. It was at times a top priory; well at least I wanted it to be. However, I never seemed to get to it. So I guess my present idols were more of a priority then this God whom I said I worshiped. It was kind of a Christianity that you see with a lot of people, where there a Christian just one day a week, Sunday. Which also makes you wonder are they even really a true born again believer? But anyways, I seemed quiet comfortable in this partial Christianity state, where I would worship and repent on Sunday and live carnally Monday through Saturday. But this never left me satisfied I would go to church and really long for a deep and amazing relationship with God but I never saw the results. Until God broke through my thick wall of pride and stubbornness and began to reveal to me, how wicked and sinful my heart is. After this I really wanted to fully give my life to Christ and live my life for Him and His glory, because in the end that all that matters. It’s been a growing process; God has done amazing things with my broken sinful heart, casting out idols and sins that have plagued my life for so long. He has filled my life with Godly men and women whom I would have never guessed I would be spending so much time with. He has also shown me that an essential part of growing is diving deep into His Word, studying it and applying to your life. Also to be in constant prayer and communication with Him and cast all your cares upon Him. “Seek the LORD and his strength, seek his face continually.” 1 Chronicles 16: 11 KJV. In growing with my relationship with God, He has shown me that he can’t deal with sin and when I do fall into temptation, the separation between me and Him rips at me and crushes me. Until I finally humble myself and repent and give it all to Him. One verse that always comes to mind is “For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our LORD.” Romans 6:23 KJV. This verse is very commonly used when giving the gospel to a lost soul but also it can be used in our daily lives as Christians to combat sin and temptation. Because when I do fall into sin I can feel the death and separation from God but when I am right with the Lord it is life. Because of this important lesson He has shown me, my life has become less and less sinful every day. God has also blessed me immensely financially, my last yard sale he blessed me with $800 dollars for selling junk! There have also been many gracious people whom donated money to my fund over the past couple months. I want to say thank you for everybody whom has supported me and I ask for prayer as God leads me on this journey around the world, but also as He guides through my life.
