Where do I start but with stating that I come to you tonight with a
somber heart and saddened mood that lie within me tonight..
I
went out to eat with my family tonight. We went to Buffalo Wild Wings,
and had some good food, good company, but I don’t know that I can call
it good conversation.
We sat there for an hour and a half in a
conversation that seems to be wearing on me more and more as this night
goes on.
I can’t say that I am surprised by it all, as so much of my
life is dependent on all that we talked about.
I am not one for
doom and gloom, and I am far from the person that even gives bad moods a
chance to grow, but tonight I just can’t shake it.
I know you all
know about the oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico, let me start by painting
an image for you..
Close your eyes and see the one thing that
love. Close your eyes to see the one thing that can never grow old,
never be a bore, always takes your heart, always puts a smile on your
face, and is everything to you. Now dump oil all over it.
That is
what the beach is to me. I am a surfer, diver, fishermen. I work
offshore, I plan on living on a boat upon our return, my favorite foods
are sea foods, my home is near the beach, EVERYTHING I know, love and
hold dear to me are there in or around the water and I fear that it is
all going to be hurt, damaged, or even just destroyed.
The oil
spill was a big part of our conversation, which rolled into troubles in
Korea, earthquakes, stock markets falling, and job loss, riots in
Thailand, and who knows what else…
I know this all sounds like
morbid conversation, but this is reality right now. The European stock
market is down, the Asian stock market is down, Americas is still not
back up, and there is just so much going on that my heart is broken.
I
am not one for the doom and gloom, end of the world is near
conversation. I’m just not.. I could really care less to know “when”
Christ is coming back. Just so long as I know He is coming..
Anyways,
I guess the reason for the broken heart tonight stems from the fact
that ALL of the above will affect our lives over the next year.
If
economies CRASH, how will we get back to the states, and back to those
that we love?
If the oil spill continues, will I have a job at all
when I get back?
What happens if the riots break out again while we
are over seas?
I just have so many questions that are heavy on
my heart! I know this thing is HEAVY, and not the typical “Happy, go
lucky Will”, but has anyone else been thinking about this stuff?
Like
this next year truly could be one of the WORST years to choose to
travel in my opinion..
IM still ALL IN, but tonight I all of this is
weighing on my heart and thought there is not a cloud in the sky, I
feel rain slowly dripping down my cheeks.
I need some prayer tonight..
