As I stood by the bonfire in the cold , praying for and witnessing healing after healing of my fellow Racers, I could feel the presence of God so powerfully that I felt as if my entire body was vibrating with heat. I was trembling so uncontrollably, almost violently, that it felt as if my body would explode because it could not even begin to withstand even this small measure of the power of the Holy Spirit. Welcome to World Race training camp, night one.
Have you ever gone on a trip, or had an experience so amazing, profound and life changing that you cannot even begin to think about how to explain it? Welcome to my mind, post training camp. I had the pleasure of meeting Z squad, the squad I will be traveling with for the next year, and grew ever so close to them. We moved from friends to family in the span of a week. I made lifelong friends, slept in the cold, ate weird food, and witnessed the power of God like never before. I was even healed from spine pain that I have suffered from for three years! To say camp was powerful would be an understatement.
This past week I have been frustrated and stretched. I have argued, laughed, loved and wept like never before. I had a small glimpse of what the Race will be like, and it made me nervous. I have had my expectations for camp, my Race, and my team, turned on their heads. Nothing is as I thought it would be, not even my Route which has been changed, but everything is as it is supposed to be. There’s a beauty in having no more expectations. A beauty in letting God have it and earnestly being excited about whats next and how He will use what lies before me.
On Thursday I was called into a room and invited into leadership. AIM staff asked me to lead a team of 7 people around the world next year and to help empower them and facilitate opportunities for them to have the Race that God wants for them. To put them before myself, all year long.
Wow. To be honest, as much as I was humbled, I was scared senseless. I thought this was what I wanted? To lead, and be used in the hard situations by God. At Worship that Night I was so terrified that I just fell on my face and begged the Lord “ Father take this from me, not my will but yours”. I honestly wanted Him to take the offer away. But as I sat there weeping, realizing how scared I was to let God down, to fail Him, He came to me in a vision. A vision of a Father, smiling and shaking His head saying “ Son, you could no nothing to disappoint me and let me down.” The love of our Father is so pure, so limitless and unconditional. I accepted the offer.
I introduce to you, Team Zoa!
Please Join me in prayer as I seek the Lords guidance as to how to effectively lead this team of wonderful people, and to learn from them. To always put them before myself, and to die first. Also keep praying for finances, as I lost my job in order to go to training camp.
So now I prepare for the biggest journey of my life, but at the same time I pray for strength to be present, here at home for the next 10 weeks. What are the expectations for your current season of life that you are holding onto? Maybe your even thinking and praying about the Race but cant imagine leaving everything at home. I challenge you to let go of those expectations, and allow the Lord to use you in a new way. It might prove harder than you imagined, even a little scary, but a little holy trepidation is just a sign that you are heading down a Divine path. Allow the Lord to awaken your soul. What are you waiting for?
