Another week closer to graduation, another week closer to the race, another week closer to God. Time is going by really fast, and the faster it goes, the more I am tempted to remain in the past, or let my mind occupy the possibilities of the future. I am forced to sit back and remind myself that I live where I am at, not where I have been, or what I will be. Living in the now, where the place that God is using me. He will use me in the future, and I can see the ways he has used me, but i can’t let myself become complacent from the satisfaction of those places.
I have a relationship with Christ, it isn’t something that will happen, or is over, it is on going. To be in that relationship, I am focusing on spending my time with him. I am excited and preparing for the race like I am called to, but I refuse to let that hinder my current growth with Jesus.
Now I’m not saying I don’t look forward to the race, because when I start thinking about it, I get so excited I can’t sleep. I am saying that I won’t let that excitement turn into an idol.
We as a people today don’t make golden cows, or worship planks of wood, but we fall just as hard when we make idols in our lives. They can look very different, sports, jobs, friends, families, boyfriends, girlfriends, even things like the world race, we make idols in our lives that shift our focus from God.
I know when I began the process of joining the world race gap year, my intentions were in my heart focused on God. But as I have moved through this process, I have seen a shift in my perspective that I am correcting. It became more and more about the trip, and less and less about God. That is audacious.
I have been able to shift my perspective back towards God, and it bring me joy every day that I have Him on my side. Fundraising is a big area where I have seen God move and can see Him continue to move, and I know that He will use all of the money He has provided.
It is time to drop my idols, and just give Him what He deserves, all of me.
