Have you ever experienced one of those times where everything is going just as expected and then out of nowhere, a dose of reality steps in and blindsides you? There’s nothing left to do but to stammer back to your feet and question, “Where did that come from?”
I experienced this in San Diego last week. Mine and Taylor’s main purpose for the trip was to drive out to California, spend a few days of relaxing vacation on the beach, steal Tiffany, and head back home. Pretty simple mission. Plenty of relaxing right? Well, sort of…
There are times in my life where I think I’ve missed my calling. When I sit and think about the way my brain works, I feel like there are more times that I am being a politician than what I really am. Now this does have it’s perks. I have the ability to make friends fairly easily and create a network that can grow pretty large at times. The flipside of that is my downfall. There are times that I begin to see people as tools or pawns in my own game. It’s not that I want to use people, it’s just sometimes I actually convince myself it’s the best option for me AND them. The other perk of this is that I have the ability to gain people’s trust. I’m one of those guys that strangers will tell secrets to, I’ve never figured that out. My downside here is that my ability to help others
go deep, totally overshadows my inability to address my own heart. Did that hurt to read as much as it hurt to write?
This was all thrown out on the table this week when God decided to address a lot of heart issues for pretty much everyone in the San Diego area it felt like. As we prayed over Taylor one night as he was struggling with something, it felt as though
the prayers were coming my way too. God gave me a word that He confirmed through AJ who spoke up first. The basic point of that messagewas that sometimes God doesn’t remove things immediately; sometimes we have to stay in the refiner’s fire a little bit longer for the work to be completed. (On the ride home, Tiffany read from On The Anvil by Max Lucado, it provided some needed words for both me and Taylor)
My whole life, my biggest addiction and downfall has been relationships. I thrive off new friendships and connections, but I never allow them to progress. This next year I won’t really have a choice in that matter because I know that the 33 people on my team will refuse to allow me to just fly under the radar. That is one of the scariest and most exciting promises I am holding on to this year. That is one expectation I refuse to doubt…
