So, I really do not want to write this blog. I am not really the blogging type. I have never had a blog, tweeter, or MySpace. I never read blogs until I read couple to see how other Worldrace participants wrote theirs. That turned out to be a mistake! All of their blogs are immaculate. They are articulate, descriptive, have all these awesome pictures. Like, were all these people English and Web Design majors in College? At least I no longer have to worry if this blog is bad, compared to the other blogs I KNOW it is bad. So why even write it? It would be a lot easier to just avoid blogging, dodge the disaster. I could easily create a ton of excuses. I have a job, I need to do some laundry, I am hungry, I am a horrible writer, I am such an average guy and have nothing interesting to write… Well, that is why I am writing this blog. Because I do not want to and I have more than enough excuses not to. A mentor of mine always used to talk about choosing the hard right over the easy wrong. If something is hard enough to warrant an excuse, it probably warrants the effort to be accomplished. So here I am henpecking at this keyboard to do my first blog… so here I am going on the Worldrace…
When I was first called to the mission field I was excited! I had been patiently waiting on an answer to a prayer. “What now?” Pretty simple prayer huh? Well, it was pretty hard for me to ask that question. I was always so consumed with “What does God want for me?” I never thought to ask, “What does God want?” You subtract two words and suddenly your whole life changes. Crazy huh? It took me a long time to take myself out of the equation. To realize this is not my story, that I am not the lead character in this film. But when I finally did, when I finally began seeking His Will and not imposing my own, everything became simpler. Even questions became simpler. “What now?” 6 months of “What now?” brought an answer, one written in my heart, “Go Spread the Word.” (Sidenote: You know it is God speaking when it is in your chest, not your head, your chest. It is not a thought or a feeling; it is just there, in your heart.) Well, like I said I was excited to spread the word, key word “was.” As time elapsed that initial joy diminished, I found out that doing missions was hard. Like hard, hard. Like raise a ton of money, miss another year of my nieces growing up, deal with a bunch of craziness type hard. I started thinking I could wait a year then go or maybe settle down and do it when I am older. I had plenty of logical reasons to not go right now and that is when I knew… I knew that I needed to GO NOW. Because I did not want to and had more than enough excuses not to, then obviously I am supposed to. Right? Well, I chose to go into the mission field and life got simple again. No more fretting, no more worrying. And God led me to the Worldrace and I got excited again…
A fact of life is that God is always trying to show you where to go. You just have to be patient and you just have to listen. Sometimes life will become an obstacle though, that is just life, it trips you up. And so it becomes your decision to make. Left or right, right or wrong? In your heart, you know. You can ignore it, but you know. Make the hard decision, the right one. Write your blog, go on the Worldrace, whatever it may be. Just, do not avoid it because of the difficulty, pursue it for the difficulty…
