Sorry for this very overdue post about Thailand, but with limited Internet access in Cambodia I didn't get to post this until now.
Anyways I came on the World Race to grow into His likeness and be made in the image of God. I came to understand the depths of Christian community with all the struggles and joys that comes with it. And finally, of course, I came to serve God and see how I can join in where He is moving in places all around the world.
While in Thailand our ministry host, Emmi, challenged us to find "the one" in Thailand. The one whom God brought us to Thailand to serve and to show God's love to. I set out to find that one person God had for me. Instead, I found He had many things for me in Thailand like finding a passion I never imagined I would have, human trafficking. I loved on many people throughout the month from monks at the local temple during monk chat, from kids in the slum area of Chiang Mai, from bartenders and bar girls on the bar street at night. I watched others find the person they were passionate about and felt called to love for this one month season, but at times I felt very discouraged because I didn't feel like God had one person specifically set apart for me to love in Thailand like He did with Andy, Frank, and Fu in China.
I felt like ministry in Thailand overall was very successful, but I felt like I was missing something. I couldn't put my finger on it until the we lit paper lanterns with the kids in the slums on our last night. God showed me so much in Thailand like the power of prayer, a passion He placed deep within me that finally came to the surface, and great revelations about how God will change Chiang Mai and specifically the bar street area. I felt so close to God as if He was tangibly beside me. As I let the paper lantern go and watched it disappear into the beautiful Thai night sky I realized it.
"The one" God had for me for the month of Thailand was myself! At first I felt uneasy about this, but then I realized He was making an investment. God invested in me that I may have full faith which will pay large dividends for Him in the long run. I don't know what they will specifically be yet or when, but I will obediently follow His whispers in my ears now to see where He leads me.
Praise God that He knows me intimately, the Father of the Universe, the Author of Salvation, the Creator of life, knows everything about me and He also wants to be known by me. Praise God that He continues to love me and challenge me to go deeper with Him. Praise God that He is growing the obedience and faith in me to follow His quiet whispers that are His plan for my life. I pray these quiet whispers lead to something big that shouts from the mountains the glory of our Father.
