So it’s time to get a little personal about my journey on this race and it all started this week with a baby. I held baby “J”, only 4 months old, cradling him as he fought the urge to sleep.
This month I’ve held more babies than I can count, and I think God had a reason for it.
I needed a small victory.
And I finally got it this month, on Saturday while a group of 40 children all danced to the electric slide and the church clap. Little baby “J” slowly started to give in to his sleep and while the base thumped behind me he closed his eyes and fell asleep.
And then I came home, thrilled about the baby and tired from the day and held words from a retired pastor that stopped me in my tracks.
“Ephesians 3:20- God is able to do exceedingly abundantly beyond even what you think, according to the power working within you.
He’s more than able, more than willing, he wants to do beyond anything you could ask for. Because HIS power is working within us.
We limit God we limit ourselves, but the spirit of God is NOT limited, he can do all things! Think BIG ask BIG, don’t limit your thoughts based on what people say.
So whatever that is- a husband and children or ministry…”
And I froze, looked him in the eye and started to bawl.
You see 6 years ago I was sent to doctor after doctor due to a problem with cysts growing inside. This problem doctors told me might affect me having children, and I immediately closed that desire. And unknowingly I closed the desire to have a husband at the same time.
You see my brain thought, what Christian man would want a damaged woman?
But this week God has been speaking to me over and over again about how he’s going to give me a husband and a family with children.
And suddenly my desire for a family, for a husband is back and I know that God will fulfill that promise to me. And Lord knows I listen to his words so well coming from his follower’s mouth, and he spoke to me Saturday and hit me like a train.
So now this week as I rocked babies to sleep during church my heart soared at the thought that God is WILLING to give me my greatest desires, and I truly believe he will.
What is it you desire today? Are you limiting your desires to God? I want to encourage you to pray into this because we limit God so much but He has a plan for you, a purpose for you, and will care for you. He’s just waiting to see what you can dream up with him.
