Well here we are, exactly 2 weeks away from my next financial deadline. CRUNCH TIME!!!!
There is something happening on the inside of me. Something that can be summed up in one word: beautiful!
That something is peace!
Just a few days ago, I was a nervous wreck about everything dealing with the race. I kind of just wanted to run & take cover. On top of still needing $6,000 before the next deadline, things here at home were driving me completely nuts; I wanted to scream! No matter how many people/things I came in contact with that provided wisdom & reassurance of God’s faithfulness, I couldn’t get a hold of myself. One minute I would be content/happy & the next minute I would be soaking in my imaginary sorrow, even though God has constantly proven Himself faithful time after time through this process. I probably mopped around the house more over a span of 3 days than the rest of this year combined.
I lost sight on how far God has brought me to this point & for a moment I had begun to put Him in the same, simple box I used to put Him in. I left training camp full of faith & praying bold prayers but it seemed the training camp spark had dimmed. I remember praying the other day & afterwards I had to ask myself “why am I praying these bold prayers but not having faith to even believe in The Lord to work in my favor?”
Well boy let me tell you, I sure am glad that God pulled me out of that funk. Here I am now feeling like a back to back NCAA national championship basketball coach in the fourth quarter: calm, cool, & collected. I know that God’s plan is perfect even when it doesn’t happen the way I expect it to. The victory is already mine through Jesus! God’s the author of my life story & His timing for everything is perfect.
I have to do my job accomplishing the things God wants me to accomplish right now in this moment, stop thinking ahead, & allow Him to work according to His will.
“God definitely doesn’t need us trying to do His job”
I know it only takes the blink of an eye & the snap of a finger for God to provide. So with the game on the line & three seconds left on the clock, I’m giving the ball to the most valuable player on the court: JESUS!!!!
Isaiah 26:12- “Lord, you establish peace for us; all that we have accomplished you have done for us.”
