Here I am back to my usual grind back in Seattle… and then one by one my busy schedule dribbles down to nothing as I slowly (and unwillingly to an extent) close the doors of what has made up my life here. First my job as an assistant teacher at a childcare facility came to an end, then my workout subscriptions (yes I am the type that needs these to be motivated to do any type of physical exercise) along with all other subscriptions and lastly my volunteer position at a children’s hospital.
As each of these positions came to a close, I realized what all of it really meant to me… I had placed my worthiness in each of these positions, letting all my actions and being be the true teller of my identity. And it was in these actions that I found there was no need or room for God, thus keeping me from being a light onto others as I can only be through Jesus. But as each of these positions were stripped away from me I realized then that I was not placing my identity in what I should have been all along- that being Jesus. Thus I have been taking the last few days to really refocus and rekindle the fire that has burnt out a bit since training camp. I recognize now that it is in nothingness we can still find Jesus and be okay with where we are right now; I believe in His perfect timing even in the stillness. So here’s to refocusing my mind, body and soul on Him and the mission and to placing my identity in Him and Him alone. Prayer over this is much appreciated!
Thanks for reading and God bless!
Just a random update: Nowadays my days are spent at cafes, searching for ways to get out and explore my city, learning more about the countries I will be traveling to and of course working on blogs like this, while also fulfilling the caffeine depravity I may experience out in the field.
