I Have Found the Love of My Life!
Finally, the day has come!!
“Wendy, I bet you’re going to meet the love of your life on the World Race!”
Many of you were right when you told me this! How did you know?
I never expected to meet him so soon!
Is he in the group picture? Can you guess which one he is?
I bet you can’t.
My first crush was in preschool. My mom reminds me, that his name was Cosmo. He had a rat tale haircut and big brown eyes. He was “the love of my life”.
1st-5th grade “the love of my life” was a boy named Marc. He had that dark brown hair and a comedic personality, the class clown.
The Middle school “love of my life” had that same dark hair and eyes, a skater boy who loves Jesus.
High school- skater boy and then my first BF.
College in IL, boyfriends.
After college, boyfriends.
Currently, “the love of my life” is… God
*Before you decide to stop reading this I challenge you to read on.
I know it’s silly to say that I’m in love with God. But let me explain. It took me a long time to realize that God is source of that “love” I was so desperately seeking. I was looking for his love in intimate relationships and was coming up empty. I was looking for a boyfriend to cure my loneliness and fulfill my affections. This search for the “love of my life” became an idolized journey of heart ache and heart break for others. I began to place my value and identity in my search for the “love of my life”. I began to change my ways to become the most attractive version of myself. Dating became a “game”; the hard to get, to chase or be chased. Love was all about the “game”. After years of playing “games” I fell to the feet of God wanting a different life. If i was going to hurt anyone else, then i wasn’t going to date anyone anymore. This surrender lead me on journey of heart renewal and restoration.
“In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps”. (Proverbs 16:9). When you give your heart to God, believe me he’ll take you on the most life changing journey you could ever imagine.
Now, I am not bashing on relationships. In fact, I can’t wait to marry a man and have a few little soccer players running around someday! I’ve just learned that there’s a healthy way to view/desire relationships. My biggest desire was to find my future husband and have a family. Every guy I became interested in, I would picture that future with them. A checklist began to imerge. Did he have this or that, don’t like this, love that about him. Stupid huh? It took me a while to realize despite the evolution of sexual attraction, we don’t need to create a checklist for a potiental mate. God will direct us if we allow him too. Yet, “the love of your life” quest he’ll take you on will be where you discover that he is actaully the love you’ve been so desperately seeking.
“A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.” (Proverbs:31:10)
Don’t look to someone to be your “savior” or satisfy all your needs. Instead look to the source of the “Love” you seek. Sex- God engineered the sexual bond, to be more satisfying than the act itself.
In conclusion, the “love of my life” is not in the group picture or in any picture for that matter. Are you disappointed? Did you think you could guess it right? Well, so did I and now I’ve discovered who actually holds my heart. <3
