As my launch date gets closer and closer feelings of inadequacy begin to surface. This morning I began doubting my efforts to continue fundraising because I felt that I wasn't good enough. I began asking God, Why me? Why are you asking me to go, out of everyone in the world? As I began talking to my sister about my feelings of doubt it came to me. God could have gotten someone who knows more bible than I do, prays 24 hours a day but, when it comes down to it GOD chose ME! I may not be able to recite the bible from cover to cover nor do I pray for 24 hours a day but, he chose me to go and share love. I know what it is like to grow up with out a physical father and to have close relatives neglect you. I know what it is like to grow up living paycheck to paycheck and watching your mother worry about money. I know what it's like to live a life of worry but . . . I also know what it is like to have a spiritual father there to guide you, to provide for you, to love you and to comfort you when you feel alone. Times like today are few but, when they surface I being to remember that these are not to be moments of frustration but, rather moments of reflection of what God has brought be through and where he is leading me.
