I’m so tired. I’m tired of life, people, ministry, sleepless nights, fear, people telling me what’s wrong with my body or looks, emotions, the heat, not feeling well, opening wounds, healing, being frowned upon because I made choices that people didn’t agree with and I miss my family so much. The list could go on and on. I’ve wanted to go home so bad. I’m just so tired.
I keep asking myself why I am feeling the way I am. I’m doing missions and work for the Lord. What if the Lord calls me to long term missions work in the future? How will I survive that? I’ve felt the joy of the Lord like never before. I’ve been so happy up till this point. It’s half way through the race. I should be celebrating right?
Then something hits me. Satan knows my weaknesses and has been using them to destroy me. I’ve been standing here fighting this long and exhausting battle that I am to the point that I want to give up and say you win. He’s been fighting hard because he knows that good things are happening in my life. He knows that I am following God’s will for my life and hates it. He knows I’m not the weak person I use to be, but still hopes that I will turn from Christ. He wants me to go back to the person I was before.
I am sitting here wanting to give up but there is something I do know. I am not fighting this alone. I have Christ right here beside me. If I ask Him, He will give me strength. And guess what?!? The battle is already defeated because of Him! Satan no longer has a hold of my life. Yeah I might be feeling like crap, but I am not going to let that make me give up. The Lord has called me to big things and I am going to keep fighting! It’s not worth giving up over. So back away Satan. Bye bye Felicia! You are no longer welcomed here! Satan better be ready because I am coming back to fight stronger than I ever have!!
I am writing this because I am asking for prayers. This month has been one of the hardest months for me. Like I said I’m just tired. I know the power of prayer and have seen it for myself. Please pray as I continue to fight this battle. Pray that I will continue to give my yes to the Lord. Pray for strength like never before. Just pray pray pray!
I appreciate every one of you so much! You don’t even know how much I do. I appreciate all of the encouragement, love, and support I get from you all. The Lord has done, is doing, and will continue to do huge things in my life. I’m excited that I’m not walking this journey alone but that I have you all to walk this journey with me! I can’t wait to tell you about the exciting things the Lord has done and has called me to as they come up! I love you all so much!
I am also trying to practice my prayer life. So if anyone ever has any prayer request you can either comment below, message me on Facebook, Or email me at [email protected]. Also if you need any encouragement or just would like to video chat with me I would be more than honored to do that. I have Skype: whereintheworldisvic, FaceTime, and Facebook video chat!
So yeah! Thank you again!
Blessings,
Victoria Finlay
