Afternoon Everyone! After many months of pursing the World Race for this next season of my life I ultimately will not be able to join my team due to lack of donations. For the weeks leading up to the deadline I began to pray for what I saw as a ginormous financial hole I had to fill, but I was looking at it all wrong. Although I had prayed tons about pursing this mission we can so often let our personal desires affect what we hear God speak, not every opportunity that will present itself is Gods will (something I’ve been learning on this journey ??). Instead of just praying and assuming that God would provide I began to approach it a bit differently, I came before Him willing to leave everything for 9 months and be His servant through this ministry & that if this be His will that He provide & make the way for me to participate.
We all know how powerful God is & where He guides, He provides! However, the deadline recently passed and I had not received any donations in weeks. I do not see this as a let down, but as an answered prayer. I asked God what he wanted & He responded, I can’t be mad at that, Haha! This is SUCH an amazing organization with a great group of people that are going to touch so many & do powerful things around the World! But the Lord has made it clear that at this time this is not the direction He is leading me in. Through this process I have learned so much about who God is, He does not want us to fail, he does not want to see us hurt or disappointed- but as our father He will always do what is in our best interest, even when we think we know what’s best & can’t understand why He would keep us from something that seems so good for us… his plans are always bigger & better and we have to trust that, even when we can’t see it yet! I have learned so much about myself & my identity in Christ- I am courageous, I am fearless, I am adventurous when HE is leading because I know there He will be with me. He has been teaching me so much about prayer and how important it is to humble myself before Him and to LISTEN but also how honest & open I need to be with Him. I know most of you might think I am so let down & discouraged that I did not reach the goal & that I might feel disappointed, I am not. I would have loved to be apart of this mission, but when God says no it is because He has something else in store so now I will remain hopeful & full of anticipation for what is to come- coming out of this stronger in my faith & more united with Him than ever.
For those who donated I want to say thank you, your support meant the World to me! Your donations are non-refundable but they will still go towards the organization so that they may continue touching lives, YOUR donation is making a difference- thank you.
For Squad L- you guys are awesome, you are game-changers, you are going to do amazing things. Although I will not be accompanying you on this journey you will be in my heart & prayers and I will be following the whole way. I can not wait to see how God uses each of you to touch those around the world, what a blessing you will be!
All I can say to finish is thank you, thank you, thank you- to everyone who encouraged, supported & pushed me to this opportunity, although I won’t be a part of the trip God definitely used the process to work & grow me. God is good & good things are coming ??
