I have been having an incredibly difficult time with writing a new entry. I have so much going on in my head, it’s hard to write about one thing without it spilling over into something else. The end of the school year always comes with so many changes and preparing for The World Race brings a whole new element to that. I’m struggling with priorities, I have this sense of urgency that I didn’t have before. An urgency to spend quality time with friends and family, to make sure I’m spending time alone with my Father, taking the time I need to invest in high school ministry I volunteer in. It makes me so uncomfortable to feel like I can’t give 100% in any area. But two things come to mind:
1. I’m in a place where I don’t have 100% to give-but that’s okay. My job is to give everything I have, that means if all I have is 30%, then that’s what I give. God has an amazing way of meeting us where we are. When 30% is all I have, and I commit it to Him, He will make up for the other 70%
Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and he will establish your plans.
Proverbs 16:3
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
2 Corinthians 12:9
2. being uncomfortable is a good thing. Being uncomfortable means that change is happening. It’s in our nature (especially mine) to like when things are a at a constant and are predictable; thankfully our Lord desires change. As much as I don’t like it, I want that change, because it’s that change that brings growth. As overwhelmed as I may feel, I welcome change with open arms because I have seen how God can use it to bring about something so beautiful.
Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?
I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.
Isaiah 43:19
The blessings of the Lord won’t just bless you; they will also complicate your life.
Mark Batterson
Lord, I beg for more of you. I have caught myself asking for the things of you (faith, joy, peace, etc…) more than I ask for You, just You. I know those are not bad things to ask for but I also know that it is only because of You that those things are possible. So I ask you to make me uncomfortable, make me take risks, because I know that as long as I have you I will have more than I could ever want or need.
Thank you for all of the continued support! It is getting more real as I begin to buy gear. I am so blessed by the conversations that The World Race has made possible. Please pray that the Lord would continue to prepare me and my squad spiritually, emotionally, and physically. If you feel led to donate financially, please click the “Support me!” link on the left of this page (it would be so crazy and so awesome if I got fully funded by the time I left in September!)
-Victoria
