I wrote a list back in May of things that I longed for with God, things I had no idea how to obtain. I found this list the other day and after I read it and I thought to my self “I serve an amazing graceful God” and deeply thanked Him.
1. I long for spiritual intimacy with my husband, I do not know how to obtain it, I’m not even sure I know what it looks like.
I didn’t “obtain it” God gave it to us, through the Holy Spirit. What does it look like? I can’t describe it but I can tell you something great happened in our marriage and now we stand united in Christ like never before.
2. I want to learn to pray whole-heartily daily, not only when I get desperate. To pray and believe not just to hope it might happen.
I had to witness physical healing, meet people who prayed whole heartily and be pushed to try it my self. I now believe that every prayer I say is heard and I expect things to change no matter how great or impossible they seem. I am empowered through the Holy Spirit.
3. I want more healing, deeper understanding, I want to be secure in Him but I feel stuck in a “no way out” alley where I should know how to get out but either I don’t know or I’m not willing to get out.
I found the “way out” through surrender, the reason it was so hard because it was surrendering control, the one thing we all so desperately hold on to. When I surrendered, my heart broke and I felt beauty, I felt freedom, I felt acceptance. I experienced God in a new way, in deeper more intimate way. I touched His face and heard His voice. In His presence I feel at home.
4. I do not want to be judging towards people but learn to love others no matter our differences, their brokenness or mine.
I met so many people in training camp, with different stories, different walks in life, different brokenness. These “people” quickly became my brothers and sisters and our differences didn’t matter because our hearts belonged to the same Father. We are all God’s people.
You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you.
2 Chronicles 20:17
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MEET TEAM 6.33
Lauren, Noah, Zach, Michael, Me, Shannon and Deborah
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well
Matthew 6:33
