Before I got accepted to go on the race, I felt fearless, I felt unstoppable. My faith was so secure. The obsession with the trip was so real.
Although, I do still feel these feelings, I am human and a human can get to thinking…
After being accepted all I could keep thinking was that I am really going to 11 countries and being far away from home for 11 months. I am really going to have to raise near 17,000 for the trip. The trip is 5 months away.
It’s like, it’s cool to dream and to be like ahhhh, I’m going to backpack around the world, spread the gospel, spread love, do everything God envisions me too…..but then when it comes to reality, I’m like….”Can I really handle this?”
From being away from friends and family, to totally changing living habits, taking bucket showers, possibly getting sick, being in nothing but poverty, changing from Asia to Africa to Europe, oh my goodness. For almost a whole year?! So many things happening. Will my mind go crazy? Will I feel lonely across the world? Am I seriously really doing this?
As humans we have all our dreams and aspirations and sometimes they are much bigger than us. Sometimes we just adore them but don’t really do our complete best in moving towards them. Because we are scared. We are unprepared. We don’t know if we are ready. We think we may fail. People think we are crazy. We have to many distractions. We simply don’t have the resources.
There are so many don’ts and insecurities we have along with our dream. Along with that, it feels like its forever until we get there.
I am about to be living in my dream. My dream/passion is to change the world for the better as much as I can before I die. I have a heart for change. My heart breaks for the broken-hearted. I was broken before, then God healed me and gave me so much happiness. He gave me an overflowing of love that I can’t keep to myself. I want the lowly ones to experience this Love. This Love is the love we all are craving for, true genuine love from our Heavenly Father. This Love makes everything possible. LOVE TRULY OVERCOMES ALL INCLUDING EVIL. God gave it to me so I could give it to others, and I will for the rest of my days. If it is as little as one person, one town, one village, etc., as long as I am doing it, I can sleep at night. This won’t be easy. But anything that is worthwhile and beautiful isn’t easy. I honesty can’t really decide whether the journey is more beautiful or the end result. Both are beautiful gifts of life.
Sometimes you just have to suck it up and GO! Release all that is negative to your life, fall in love with yourself, and THRIVE!
Not to many people pursue their passion or even get to find it. Lean on to the creator! If anyone asks me how I overcame anything or did anything, I will always say, “BECAUSE OF HIM”.
God, my Father, is the reason I have been led to this trip. I actually had my first encounter with the Holy Spirit when I stayed up late and ended up on The World Race website. Ever since then I just knew I had to do it before I could proceed with my life.
God is the reason why I remain fearless. He is the reason I allow no one to judge me accept Him. He is the reason I am full with joy all the time. The reason I have peace through storms. The reason I admire everyone’s heart. The reason I have grown so much. The reason I still have hope for the world and people that have shattered, broken lives. The reason why I can accept and move past the brokenness in my own life!
Psalm 29:11 The LORD gives strength to his people; the LORD blesses his people with peace.
Because I can do all this, I can fulfill my passion. I can understand what love truly is. I can go on being fearless knowing that where ever I go, I am protected by my Heavenly Father.
Philippians 2:12-13 “Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose”.
I am so excited that this is really happening! I am also so excited that I will be able to take you along with me on this journey! I love taking pictures and writing about what I am doing, so you will get to know my whole walk into this!
I do have to raise my funds and anything truly helps. If you would like to donate, ANYTHING, I would truly appreciate it so much! Your donations aren’t going to me, but to the ministry of HIS work through me. I am only the vessel of his work!
Thank you and love you.
