Who am I? What am I doing here? What is my purpose for living? At some point in every ones life, they ask themselves one or more of these questions. I myself have asked all of these many times. For the longest time I thought I knew the answer to all of them. That all changed the day I was saved. I discovered the answers I had for them were completely wrong.
I thought I was worthless. All I did was drink and party and cause destruction to myself and everyone around me. I was depressed and felt that I had no purpose in life. That was no more true then, than it is now. I was blind to love then. In the last two years God has taken me on a journey that has changed my every being. My thoughts are different. My words are softer. My heart is warmer. My Saviour is bigger.
See I was saved by grace. I found God when I didn't even know I was searching. God pulled me from a place of darkness and showed me that I didn't belong there. None of us do. I am not someone to be thrown aside. I am an example to those around me. I am a leader. I have a gift to either build the people around me up, or to tare them down. It's in all of us. My purpose is to reach those who are like I was. Show them that the darkness they live in is a choice they are making. That they don't have to feel alone. They don't have to mask their pain. They don't need those substances to numb them from the pain.
My identity is in my Father. An identity that is love. My heart breaks when I see people in the state of defeat. When we feel conquered by the things of this world we should take comfort in knowing that we serve a God that has conquered this world.
I refuse to sit stagnant in the body. A heart is useless if it does not beat. What good is an eye that can not see. So my purpose is to forever share the love and grace that set me free from my bondage. I have to share Jesus with the world. He is my world.
