I have an interesting habit of wearing my shirts and hoodies inside out (I admit, its weird). Now, I could say that I do this because I shun the fashionable ways and disregard the opinion of others. That would probably be a lie. I wear what I wear, and in the way I wear it, because I want to appear a certain way. Now follow me as I make this leap… its a connection only God can make not strange… how often is my faith simply about wearing my shirt inside out? On the outside I seem to be different. I am going on the World Race. I don’t swear. I lead a small group. I wear a cross around me neck. But what in the world does ANY OF THAT have to do with my heart?!?!? Nothing. How does that make me ANY DIFFERENT than the homeless man on the street or the rapist in prison?!?! It doesn’t.
This morning I read this blog by Seth Barnes on spirituality and it reminded me of this blog on integrity by a past World Racer BriEllyn Widbin. Which simply goes to show how long God has been trying to get me to understand– really really understand– this need to be more than just a Christian in name or action, but in a heart that seeks God completely. And yes, when that happens how I appear on the outside will change. I will necessarily look and act differently than the unsaved and lost. But I won’t live for that appearance; my heart will be consumed in seeking after HIM alone.
What does this mean? Simply that I have a long way to go… but for the first time I have heard my Lord and my intentions are where they should be. God I seek You on this journey. Let me not take control. I just want You.
