Do you ever feel alone in a crowded room?
For the last 6-8 months this is how I have felt. I can be around people that I’ve known for years having fun but still feel alone. Its like the connection we used to have is gone, and at first it was super confusing. Now that I’ve had time to pray and ask the Lord about it, I realize that its Him.
He has me in a season of separation, now this doesn’t mean that I’m not connecting and still getting to know people; but I’m not developing deep connections with them. Why you ask? Because I’m a person that gets attached to people pretty quickly, so when you’re like me, your connection to people can keep you from doing what the Lord wants you to do.
I’ve seen relationships that I’ve built over the last 5-6 years become distant almost to the point of not existing. At first it hurt because these are people I consider family, but those relationships could also keep me from being fully connected to the Race. When we launch in January if my heart isn’t fully in it then I won’t be as effective in ministering to the people I encounter over those 11 months. Its also an answer to prayer. One of my fears is struggling to leave the people I meet each month and not being fully invested in the next country we go to. So I asked God to help me love without being too attached, and He’s doing that!
So I want to encourage those of you that are in the same boat. Sometimes separation isn’t from the enemy, sometimes it may be in the plans of the Lord. If you find yourself in this same situation then really dive in and analyze it, ask for clarification and direction. What if some of the connections you have are keeping you from walking the path the Lord has planned for you? If the people you are distancing from really love you, then they’ll also understand and support you! Don’t allow fear of the unknown hold you back!
