Nothing that is worthwhile or important will come easily.
There are certain moments in your life that come to define you as a person, propelling you towards your destiny, wether that be God’s plan for you, or otherwise.. For awhile now I have no longer felt content doing the things I’ve always done. The cycle of my life has been blown apart the past year, and I’ve been left analyzing who I am as a person as the smoke clears. This year is about resetting my internal qualities, so that I can begin making the necessary changes needed to achieve the huge dreams that God has given me.
I realize that until I leave for this trip in 6 short months I’m guaranteed to be challenged, to doubt, to fear.. But those are the feelings that let me know that what I’m doing is in line with Gods will, and matter deeply. These are the qualities that the enemy jumps at the opportunity to magnify. By doing this race I am finally, for the first time in my life, following my authentic heart. I am making the choice that is right for my life and Gods will, even if that alienates me from others or the belief system of the masses. Truth hurts.
This trailblazing energy that I’m tapping into in preparation for this trip are giving me the gumption to make the choices I’ve seen on the horizon, yet have been hiding form for the sake of the world. Everything I’ve known is falling apart, forcing me to be reborn into a life that I never thought possible.. For the past year I’ve been dancing over the border of my safe place, and moving toward the edge of a cliff that leads to so much more than I’ve ever desired for my life. This cliff represents what I will have in my life, now that I have trusted God, closed my eyes, and JUMPED.
Going back is not an option. I’m not the same person I was a year ago. In fact, I’m not the same person I was a couple months ago. What provided comfort for me in the past feels restrictive and suffocating, because the only thing that can truly give me peace is Jesus. His perfect, never changing, infinitely beautiful Love.
Because of Him I have come to realize that none of the horrible things in my past matter because without making those wrong choices, the right choice may never have been found with such clarity. I needed to go through each and everything that I have faced in order to bring me the clarity of this moment.
The truth is that all we have is God and this moment, and there is no better time than right now to start a new beginning.
