So I had this totally long "about me" typed up here for months… but felt like I needed to change it. I am Patricia, but prefer to be called Trish. I am a recent College Graduate Whoop! Whoop! It took me six years but I made it! I am 23 years young. I live in California. I live 2 hours from the beach and 2 hours from the mountains. My favorite color is teal. I can be random and crazy. Im wierd and akward at times. I have an awesome best friend and an awesome church family. I have an amazing job that I love. I get to work with kids that have behavioral challenges and I love every minute of it. Yes, I said that! On the best day I come home completely exhausted and still love it! But all of this it's not enough for me. None of it really matters. I feel totally blessed by God to have what I have. He has totally overwhelmed me with his love and given many literally the desires of my heart. Yet, I come home everyday and know that this isn't it. There is no way I can stay in this comfort zone and forget the call God has given me. My heart beats for people. My heart aches for people, and as much as I would love to say okay this is my pretty little life, I cant! I know God created me for more than the "American Dream." I know to some, this may sound out of this world crazy… but I may live a poor life.. and the idea of this is finally okay with me… It doesnt scare me not to be rich any more… because being rich strips me of my dependancy on God. I am not comfortable be comfortable. There was this day in Highschool, I was standing on this hill in Tijuana, Mexico, and I knew my life would never be normal. I was in the position, where my heart for people felt like such a burden because it seemed so out of the normal, and in my heart I cried out to God and asked him why can't I just be normal. God, cant I just be one of those Christian's that goes to church on sundays and wednesdays and then lives a pretty normal life? Do I have to be this wierd one who loves you too much?? And if I have ever been i the prescence of God it was that moment he met me on the hill in mexico.. and I kept it secret for so long. Because even then it didnt feel normal. But the words he spoke to my heart was unforgettable. He said, You can't be normal, I have called you to blend in and be a mediocre christian… I have called you out…. and As I looked around, wanting to fall on my face, I say hills of shacks and broken people.. and He said I made you for this!!! I desired it and was scared of it all at the same time. I wanted it so badly but still fought it so hard. I ran across the world race a few years ago and my heart just leaped with joy… but I had to complete college… I didnt want to be the one to break the mold and say what Gods called me to do is more important. So last septemberish I ran across the world race again, and God just captured me. I couldnt ignore it. He allowed me to finish college, and now was calling me to obey him. So I applied to the September 2012 route 2.. and Had my heart set on it untill recently. For the last few weeks I have had an unsteadiness.. and after prayer realized that I needed to transfer to the January 2013 route 3, and after making that decision have so much peace.
I am totally ready to step out into this crazy journey God has called me too! I am ready to be broken, molded, and stretched into who he has designed me to be!
I want to love recklessly.. I want to cradle orphans in my arms… I want to cry with widows in the street. I want to shout his name from the roof tops. I want to worship him in the underground church. I want to live like Jesus. I want to love like he loves.
So guys, This is me and my heart in a crazy little nutshell.. but there is so much more.. Subscribe and stay on the look out for more.
Love ya,
Trish
