When I was just 12 years old the Lord called me to missions. Since then, I have had the opportunity to serve through an incredible organization called Caroline’s Promise. The country of Guatemala and the people we minister with have captured my heart. It wasn’t until this year that I have realized just how much of an impact they have had on my life.
They say that when you become a World Racer you begin a process of grieving/letting go. Although we are really excited about the things God has for us over those 11 months, it’s still really hard to leave a lot of things behind. For me one of the hardest things to let go of is the ministry in Guatemala and the friends I have here.
Over the last few days I have been soaking up every moment and trying not to burst into tears knowing this could be my last time here. If my route stays the same I will be in Guatemala next year, but I won’t be with the same people doing the same ministry. Honestly, I have no idea what God has for me after the Race and I don’t expect for him to tell me until it is time for me to know. I’m having to face the fact that God is asking me to let go of something I love dearly for His sake. I have to trust that God is good, what He has for me is best, and He is faithful.
I am thankful for the people of Guatemala and the love they have shown me over the last 13 years. I am also thankful for my sweet friend Lisa who has continually invested in me and pushed me to be the very best version of myself. She is the one who taught me to dream and to trust the dreams God gives me. Although it physically hurts to let go, I know that God will honor my obedience.
So instead of being sad I want to be joyful! I am so glad that God gave me a heart for Guatemala. If God only gives me 13 years, it’s better than 0. He used Guatemala to teach me so much about who He is and to develop me into a leader. If you’re reading this and thinking about doing missions, go for it! God will use you and change you in ways you could never imagine. I know missions have changed my life and helped me become the person I am today.
This week while in Guatemala, God showed that He alone is enough for me. He will be the one that sustains me…not only while on the Race, but for the rest of my life.
