As I am sitting in a coffee shop, I think about home. I talked to my Mom last night and it was great. I loved hearing about home and hearing about how everyone else is doing.
She also told me that my little brother Kayden, keeps asking when I’m coming home for Christmas. She said that she doesn’t know how to tell him so that he understands that I’m not coming home for another 6 months. My hearted just shattered! I felt my heart drop. The feeling that I felt was so hurtful. I love my little brother with all of my heart! For those of you who didn’t know this, when he was born, I watched him every day for a very long time so my Mom could run errands while I was at home. We have created a special bond. When i hung up, I started to cry in the middle of a coffee shop surrounded by some of the girls from my squad. I realized how much I miss my family. But, I remembered that I wrote a letter to my self at the beginning of the race and have decided to share it with y’all.
“Hey Goof!
It’s you. You’re probably sitting here reading this and really missing home. Home is going to be there when you get back! It’s going to be a little different, but the same. You might be asking yourself, why am I here? Remember how and why God called you to do this.
You were sitting on the beach in El Salvador and you prayed to God “Lord tell me if the world race is what I am ment to do? Show me.”. I know that you remember that. How could you forget? God answered you!!! You saw Jesus sitting next to you and he looked back and smiled! Few people ever get to witness that. You knew at that instant, that you were ment to go. He called you out to go. You obeyed! Dont forget that!
Things at home will still be there! You decided to give it all up. Remember that the people you love, the things you love, Young Life, hunting, froghill, all of it is still there. The fact that you gave it all up, shows the kind of man you are. You are a man of obedience, love, understanding, passion, and boldness. If you remember these, you will be fine. Jesus gave up his own life to set you free!!! What are you still willing to give up? What are you willing to set aside for the glory of God? Why do you turn away when you should keep going forward? Put your blinders on and go!!!!”
After reading this, I knew that I have to keep going. Even though I am homesick, I won’t give up.
Thank you for taking the time to read this personal blog!
-Trev
