Having Doubt, but Still Doing - Explore Archived World Race Alumni Blogs

I felt a call to lead this group of young adults, so I kind of blindly obeyed. As the time grew nearer I felt a sharp curve from excitement to nervousness. Doubting the wisdom, knowledge and experience that I have obtained. Then I had thought, as I was about to meet my team for the first time, am I doubting myself in this next season or am I unknowingly doubting God? My nervousness came when I thought I was going to be giving these young adults my wisdom, knowledge, and experience. Subsequent thought: if I believe that which I have preached to so many others that it’s the Holy Spirit working in and through me then what do I have to doubt, fear, or worry about?

After the World Race I felt like a fire extinguisher one turn away from exploding. This leadership experience has been the perfect release, in a way, to show me how to impart the wisdom, knowledge, and experience I have received from God over the 26 years of my life. I find myself constantly listening for His voice and responding or giving it away to the intended party. Being the only leader for this small group has forcibly taught me this and how much more I needed to rely on Him because I have no one/nothing else to rely on.

Our first month in Cambodia was spent being immersed into the life of orphanhood. We slept where they slept, ate what they ate, and did what these 25 orphans did 24/7. The orphanage was surrounded by rice fields and was a 20 minute moto ride into town, there was no escape! Our days started at 6am with our annoyingly consistent children alarm clocks. After breakfast at 7am we either taught English or shoveled/moved dirt. Lunch was always a feast, luckily after lunch was a “rest time.” I put it in quotes because I don’t know if you can truly call laying in a hammock with three other kids, sweating restful. Regardless, it was time to lay down. Mid afternoon was the second English class with games soon to follow. Many of the orphans were plucked right from the streets in the very town we were living so close to. My team was filled with a lot of different feelings all month, but I couldn’t have been prouder of them diving right into the role of teacher/jungle gym/friend to these kids. Despite this, my teammate said it best when he said that we feel like just an addition into this huge family; this crazy, loud, loving family.

Thank you to all of you who are following my journey, have donated, and are continually praying for me. It means so much to me! I am just over halfway funded. I only need $855 more! Please consider giving if you can and as always keep the prayers coming. I know words and stories are nice, but pictures are also very good so here are a couple of those from Cambodia!

Pushing the limits of my hammock