Yesterday was one of the hardest days of my life. It was a day of doubt, fear, worry, insecurity, sadness, depression, and ultimately with all these feeling- I became sick. My body could not handle the amount of these emotions… Until 4:05pm. Are you skeptical like I was of how God does supernatural things? That’s okay, I still feel weird about it- but read these short stories of my day yesterday and see what you think.
A real quick rewind.
Two months ago when I asked God if I should go on the World Race or not, I opened up my bible and said “God I don’t know where I’m going in this, but lead me to your answer. Say, if you would want me to go to a verse like (and I chose a book of the bible and some random numbers) Luke 18:29, let me know…… Amen.” So then I was like “Maybe I should check that verse just in case,” (keep in mind- I’ve never read or heard this verse in my life, and I just popped it off the top of my head). This verse reads "I tell you the truth," Jesus said to them, "no one who has left home or wife or brothers or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God will fail to receive many times as much in this age and, in the age to come, eternal life." Great, looks like I’m going.
Fast forward to 4:05pm 7/19/2011
I lost it. I was balling and was at a very low point, but then my squad mate called. I poured my heart out and she asked to pray over me. As soon as she said “Lord, wrap your arms around her”, my upper arms became warm as if the were arms around me from the side. I made sure that I didn’t feel this warmth anywhere else and it wasn’t me making it up, I wasn’t. I instantly felt peace and stopped crying.
4:30 pm
All day I was trying to find the verse that God gave me (in which I Mentioned above). I had it in my mind that it was in Mathew, however I could never find it. So I decided to look it up on the internet. I could have googled it, but I saw in my favorites bar that I had a random verse in Luke saved up there. I knew if I clicked on it, then it would bring me to a online bible website that I could use to search for it. This random verse in Luke, ended up being the one I was looking for.
5:00 pm – Driving to my friend’s apartment to swim
On my drive I was praying so hard; “God, SHOW ME something! Whether it be to keep fighting and go on with the trip, or that it is better for me to stay home, I don’t care- just SHOW ME!” So I was sitting there at the light for a minute and for some reason I look over to the ongoing cars who were going straight. I live in an area with not many African Americans, and especially not ones who look African. This guy- looked AFRICAN. He was going straight and basically was turned all the way around looking at me, and he nods. At first I was like “Ugh, I hate getting hit on!” But then I look at his truck- it is BEAT UP, with tons of junk in the bed. It looked like Africa.
6:00 pm- At the pool
These two guys at the pool were watching me and my friend for a while. We were just tanning but decided to get in the pool. This pool is small so when me and my friend went in, they started up a conversation. I have been meaning to ask an improv group from my town to do a free show for me for a fundraiser. One of these guys who we ended up talking to- is the manager of this improv group. I will be scheduling a fundraiser soon.
　
GOD IS INSANE! In my darkest hour, he showed up the most. He is real and he is there!
