This is something I wrote at training camp in which I stumbled into and found. It absolutely blows my mind that these things came out of me and that I had so much wisdom in the moments of my faith just beginning. This was supposed to be a diary entry for just me and the Lord, but this is the truth and I thought I would share it with you and pray that it is an inspiration. It all came straight from the spirit because this baffles me that I wrote these things!
I am so humbled. I will never take a roof for granted. My lord is awesome and he loves me more than I could ever imagine. I am a DAUGHTER of his. He is my FATHER and I will follow him to the ends of the nations, to the slums of the earth, to the hurting, the hungry, the poor, the sick. My help comes from the Lord and I will have no fear. For I rejoice and again I rejoice. God is in the air around me, I breathe in life. I breathe in freedom. I breathe in LOVE. He is teaching me every day things that I cannot comprehend, but because I TRY, I make my father proud. I want to bring people this freedom, to show them that all you have to do is BREATH. Breathe in the life that is laid out for you. The heavens rejoice and celebrate when only one comes into this life and love of the arms of the Lord. To help the least of these, to leave it all behind, to love in a way I’ve never loved before, to be somebody I’ve never been able to be but always wanted, to be able to surrender all my wants and needs- for I shall not want, to love the Lord and be grateful in all things, to be challenged and embrace it, to have my beliefs be stretched beyond the box I put God in, to see a God I’ve never seen before, to know God is much much bigger than what I had thought, to swallow my pride in order to serve and carry his cross, to sacrifice everything with faith that it is the truth, to love and be loved in an intimate way with the father, to be broken hearted daily with the hardships of the lost and the poor, my lord be with me as I take this journey for you God. It is NOT about me father God, this is all you. I refuse not to move, I was not born to be silent, you created me in a perfect image of you to live like Jesus and bring heaven on earth. God you are alive and I want to show this to those who are in need. God- Guatemala, Nicaragua, Costa Rica, Malaysia, Cambodia, Thailand, Kenya, Mozambique, Uganda, and Malawi needs you God and you’ve called me to be Jesus to these people; to care for them, to show your light, to spread your truth. I will go God, for you know better than I do. You know what is true and Holy when I don’t, you put up the sails and send me to shore when I’m lost at sea, God you put me in my place when I’m wrong in a gentle but firm way. I’ve seen who I want to be God. I’ve seen a change in me, God. Continue breaking my heart Lord, continue to take me, mold me, shake me, use me. I am yours. Do what you will.
