This was the hardest month to come to. I didn’t want to leave Uganda. I hated the thought of not being able to stay or come back for a while. I hated the thought of having to pack up and move, go to a new country, start at a new ministry and meet new people yet again. I still think about the people from Uganda who I have not seen in one week.
I hear Daniel’s Fat Albert Laugh that is always tagged onto a “Praise God!!” I hear Happy’s “She’s My Girl” song that he composed in which the verse is always sang in his Lil Wayne voice. I hear Amen’s “Woooo Hahaha” laughter that always made me laugh. I hear Robert’s high pitched “Hellooo, How are youuu” as he made fun of our high pitch voices. As much as I miss these things, I know I have to move on and give some of my heart to the next ministry. I feel like Uganda has so much of my heart that I don’t have much to give to this ministry, but that is a lie. The Lord didn’t give me a certain amount of love. The Lord gives me an overflowing amount of love so that I will constantly be receiving more and more love to give. My goal is to always be sharing God’s love. My love might have a limit, but God’s love never ends. If I want to give God’s love, the love will never end and Tanzania and Malawi still have a shot. Praise God that it’s not just me traveling the world! I would have stayed in Uganda!
　
Starting from the left to the right: Robert, Amen, Happy, Daniel
Isaiah 55:8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord.
If it were my way, I would be called to nine different months and countries and stay in Uganda the rest of the time. His way was for me to go to eleven different countries though and he has blessed me already by continuing with his way.
I already know God is blessing this month. This month we live in an awesome house that the pastor has rented out just for us to live in. It has electricity and running water outside. I know this will bless my team to feel more free and have fun together. God has blessed my ability to learn languages quickly on the race as well. The first three months, I learned how to speak conversational Spanish and when God needed me to minister, the Holy Spirit came in and gave me the full ability to speak in order to minister. In Kenya where we spoke Kiswahili, I learned what people taught me very easily. This month in Tanzania, the language is again Kiswahili. I feel as though God has blessed me with the ability to easily remember what I’ve been taught and will continue to have me learn and grow in the language. I have already been able to better bond with people because of my very small ability to at least greet others in their own language. When I return to Uganda, most Ugandans speak Kiswahili as well and it will help to communicate and bond with people there as well.
I feel like God is showing me that yes, he gave me Uganda to love and have strong in my heart, but the rest of these experiences have a purpose as well. Praise God that his way is not my way. Praise God that he loves me so much to keep pushing me in the direction I need to go. Praise God that he says yes but also and no to the things that we think we want or need.
I have two more months until I’m back to America. Two more months to fully give myself to ministry and learn lessons that couldn’t necessarily be learned in America. I will make the most of what God has given me and pray that I will continue to fall in love like I did in Uganda.
(Happy forth of July!!! I made sure to use American colors for the occasion!)
