These last two weeks have gone by so fast and yet it feels like we’ve been here for months. Its been great getting to know my squad and becoming immediate family in this short time. Traveling together for days, 15-hour layovers and sleeping in the airports will do that quickly I guess.
Yesterday was our last day of training camp and it was a bitter sweet day. I’m excided to start this journey yet sad to have to leave the others as our teams set off on our own paths.
During training camp we had some ups and downs. Some frustrations and excitement. Some pushing and stretching. Learning how to listen to what the Lord is teaching us and how to use all our senses as He is teaching us. It’s been challenging yet so rewarding.
During these two weeks I’ve been wondering do I really know what Gods love is. I mean I know what His love is, but do I really know deep down in my heart what Gods true love is and what it feels like to be wrapped in His love? I’ve been trying to go deeper in relationship with Him, but I feel like I’m hitting a wall. I’m ready to make this jump into His great love but my own walls are holding me back. As I dig deeper into myself to break these walls down, I’ve realized I don’t know how to love anymore because I’ve been hurt and have walls up to protect myself. I know it’s just a matter of time before they start crumbling down and I’m so excited to feel that love. That heart pounding love. That love that makes your heart skip. That love you know you never want to live without!
This journey is going to be pushing me into uncomfortable places with myself and others but I’m ready! It’s just the beginning and I’m so excited to see what the Lord has in store for all of us!
